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A Day in the Life

Evelyn Herwitz · April 28, 2026 · Leave a Comment

I’m heading into one of those periods when I have at least one and often two or more medical appointments each week for several weeks. Last week I met with our PCP to evaluate my sore back. Turns out it’s not a pulled muscle; it’s sciatica. Ugh. Treatment remains the same—lidocaine patches, OTC pain meds, heat or cold as needed, gentle stretching, no heavy lifting, rest, rest, rest. I’m slowly improving, able to sit and write at my computer again and drive longer distances, take walks. Sleeping soundly. All that is good, but I wish it would just go away.

My resilience was put to the test the next day, when I had to get up very early to drive in rush hour traffic to Boston for a 9:00 a.m. echocardiogram to assess my pulmonary hypertension, followed by a later morning appointment with my cardiologist. I did okay on the long drive, knowing from experience that I could lie down and doze during the echo, depending on how the tech handled the ultrasonic probe. Fortunately, he had an excellent, light touch, and I was able to rest for most of the half-hour procedure.

I found a cafe not far from the clinic and roused myself some more with an excellent breakfast. Then, after getting my sense of direction mixed up and walking a few blocks the wrong way (more tired than I thought), I realized my mistake and walked back to the clinic with 10 minutes to spare for my next appointment.

I was led to an exam room right on time for an ECG. But my cardiologist was backed up, so I was sent back to the waiting room for a while. Maybe a half-hour later, I was ushered into an exam room again, only to sit and wait for another half hour or so. This is when my iPhone is a necessary companion. I kill a lot of time in waiting rooms doing The New York Times crossword and other puzzles.

At last my wonderful cardiologist arrived, apologizing for the delay. Turns out there was a crunch of patients who showed up all at the same time. In any case, we reviewed my echo preliminary results, which were stable. Always reassuring. Pulmonary pressures were good. He noted, as he has previously, that I have some fluid around my heart, a bit more than is normal, which he attributed to some stiffening of the heart muscle due to scleroderma, which apparently impedes normal fluid absorption. Nothing to worry about, but important to track. He ordered some blood work to rule out any inflamation. We compared notes on sciatica. He’s lived with numbness in his left leg for years.

Then it was down to the lab for a blood draw. I had some other tests for my new GI specialist from a previous appointment that I could not complete at the time, so I took care of all that. The phlebotomist’s name was also Evelyn, so we bonded and chatted about our different nicknames (she goes by Eva and I, by Evie). I informed her that I have small, rolling veins, which can be an issue for getting stuck easily, and she used a butterfly needle, a good thing, because there were six vials to draw.

That accomplished, I drove home, which only took an hour, given no traffic midday, then stopped at the pharmacy to pick up a refill. By the time I got home, seven hours had elapsed since I’d left. I plugged in my heating pad and took a much needed nap, which enabled me to get some work done at my computer later that afternoon.

I’m always grateful for all of the excellent medical care. I’m also grateful when I can have some days off from all those appointments. Sleep is essential. Pacing is everything.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Fast Forward

Evelyn Herwitz · March 10, 2026 · Leave a Comment

Daylight Savings Time crept up on me this past weekend. Really, is it already time to set the clocks forward an hour? I find this adjustment jarring. I’d rather just let the sun tell me what time it is.

According to Harvard Health, we’d all be better off sticking to standard time. But DST has been a national law since 1966, and attempts to do away with it have consistently failed to pass Congress. Given all the insanity in Washington these days, no chance of this becoming a priority.

So, I dutifully set all our clocks ahead Saturday evening. I even went to bed an hour early, since I was pretty tired. It felt later. I should wake up fully rested, right?

Good plan. Didn’t work.

First mistake was reading a very good play after I turned off the TV. It only took me an hour, but that was the hour I thought I’d saved. Then I tried setting up my iPhone for a meditation to help me doze off, but at that moment, my phone decided it was time to update its operating system and shut down to load the software.

When that finally finished, I was too annoyed to relax. Eventually I settled down, then picked a sleepcast story that was far too interesting, all about traveling in Japan. At some point I dozed off, but then woke again to shift positions. Aargh!

By the time I finally was ready to sleep, it was at least 1:30 a.m., actually 2:30 DST. Reset my alarm for 9:00 a.m., which was 8:00 a.m. in my circadian cycle still tuned to EST. I got maybe five hours of deep sleep and gave up about 10 minutes before my alarm was set to go off.

Somehow, I still got through the day. As I write this on Sunday evening, though, I am ready to pack it in. Hopefully, my body will reset over the next couple of days. Check out that Harvard Health link, above, for some ways to ease the transition.

Sleep well, Dear Reader. Sleep well.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Olympic Interlude

Evelyn Herwitz · February 17, 2026 · 2 Comments

Nearly every night for the past 11 days, I have been reveling in the Milan Cortina Winter Olympics. Watching these amazing athletes’ extraordinary feats has been the best antidote to horrible headlines and stress. It has also helped me get through my bout with the flu and the lagging fatigue and residual, annoying cough.

I am a sucker for the whole spectacle. I feel elated when “old” athletes, who are at least half my age, triumph, as did Italy’s Federica Brignone, whose courageous comeback in the women’s giant slalom earned her gold. Honestly, her win brought tears to my eyes (to the extent I can make tears).

And my heart goes out to those who fall, like champion skier Lindsey Vonn and ice skating wonder Ilia Malinin. Vonn’s skiing career may be over (I really hope she doesn’t risk breaking her leg or shredding her ACL again), but Malinin will be one to watch in 2030. I wish him well and hope he learns from his Olympic experience to keep growing and striving for his personal best.

I will never be able to soar through the air like freestyle skier Eileen Gu, but I love watching her fly with such joy. I am inspired by the extraordinary grace and strength of ice dancers Madison Chock and Evan Bates. But what moves me the most is the sportsmanship of so many athletes from around the world, who compete so intensely and then congratulate each other so graciously.

Our world could use a lot more of that spirit. May it be so.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

Image: Passo Falzarego, Cortina d’Ampezzo, Italy, by Marco Czollmann

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Flu Season

Evelyn Herwitz · February 3, 2026 · Leave a Comment

Despite our vaccines last fall, the flu has found its way into our home. On Sunday afternoon, Al came back from running errands, went upstairs and went to bed. He never does this. He roused for supper and ate well, then lay down on the couch. Definitely out of character.

So I dug out a Covid test from under the bathroom sink. It had an expiration date of last June, but I gave it to him anyway, and it was negative. Then I took his temp. He was running a fever. Time to go out to CVS and pick up a few combination Covid/Flu tests.

It was dark and cold outside, about 16°F. I found the tests and an OTC med for his symptoms, and was on my way out the door when a tall, thin man standing by the side of the building called out to me. “Excuse me, Ma’am, but can you spare a dollar?” he asked. It was cold, I was in a hurry to get home, and I don’t usually have cash on me. So I declined.

As I sat in my car, with the heat on, organizing my purchases, I felt terrible. Here was a poor soul in the freezing cold, politely begging for a small handout. I thought of all the people in Minneapolis who are taking such good care of their neighbors under duress. I looked in my wallet and realized I had some bills. So I got out of the car, went back to the man and handed him a dollar. He was so grateful. He had no gloves, no hat, a shabby winter coat. It wasn’t enough, but at least it was something.

I thought about him all the way home.

Back at our house, I gave Al the new combination test. Still negative for Covid, but positive for Type A flu. Good grief. Called our medical practice, got some advice, and as I write Monday afternoon, I’m still waiting to find out if I can pick up some Tamaflu antiviral medicine for Al. I’m hoping the fatigue that has settled over me today is just fatigue.

And what of the man outside the CVS in the brutal cold? I hope he found warm shelter. I hope he bought something hot to drink. Next time I’m asked, I’ll do better.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Storm Watch

Evelyn Herwitz · January 27, 2026 · Leave a Comment

As of midday Monday, as I write, we are immersed in white. Al shoveled a foot-and-a-half of snow for two hours this morning, then fell asleep in his armchair for a while. At some point this afternoon he’ll go back outside and finish clearing our drive. We’re expecting up to another three inches by nightfall.

I’m glad he took a break. The snow is fluffy, but even so, it’s a lot of work. I wish I could help, but between the extreme cold and my hands, there is no way for me to do so. Indeed, it’s been decades since I could shovel snow. The last time I can recall, we still lived in our prior home on a major street, and as I was trying to clear the foot of the drive, a plow went by and blocked it up again. The guys in the plow laughed.

Today, Al told me, the plow that was doing another pass on our street actually stopped and helped to clear the end of our drive as well as our neighbor’s across the street.

Looking out for each other is essential in a storm, all the more so today when the storm is not just weather-driven. To the people of Minneapolis, my heart goes out to all of you, especially to the grieving families and friends of Renée Good and Alex Pretti, as well as my gratitude for showing the world what it really means to be in community—in the most bitter, cold, savage circumstances.

I contacted my senators today to express my outrage and ask them to use every tool available to stop this madness when they vote on appropriations this week. It took all of five minutes. It’s the very least I could do. You can find contact information for your congresspeople here.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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