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Evelyn Herwitz · April 21, 2020 · 6 Comments

Celebrating my birthday this past weekend, in the midst of a pandemic, was different, to say the least. Not only were we stuck at home, but also it snowed. In April. I cannot recall this ever happening. Cold, yes. Snow, no.

So, I said to Al, “Let’s build a snowman!” He was surprised, because I never suggest anything that could make my hands cold, but he was also an enthusiastic participant.

When I was a kid, I loved making snowmen. I would stay outside in our front yard, rolling each ball of snow, arranging and decorating, until I was frozen myself. Back then, I didn’t care. I have a dim memory of doing this late one afternoon, the snow tinted blue as darkness fell, mittened fingers totally numb, but still feeling joyful in the act of creating.

Of course, the snow has to be just the right consistency for construction purposes, and we were in luck. Big, fat, pasty flakes had fallen all morning, a few inches worth, the kind of wet snow that gloms together into heavy blobs when you scoop up a handful. We headed out the front door and got to work.

With a shovel, Al created a mound for the base. We slapped on more snow globs to round it out a bit, and then I rolled two very heavy balls for the middle and head (needed Al’s help to stack them). We added stones for eyes and buttons. I found a couple of twigs from a fallen tree branch (very windy last week) for arms. Al added what was left of our horseradish from Passover for a nose, and contributed an old baseball cap. Together, we secured the finishing touch—a green bandana for a face mask. And so, in about twenty minutes, “Covie” was complete.

As we worked, a few neighbors walked by with their dog and voiced their approval. I took Covie’s portrait on my phone and headed inside. My mittens were soaked, just like that day long ago, and my fingers icy, but it was worth it.

Other birthday activities included reading a novel, listening to an inspiring podcast, enjoying birthday greetings from friends and family, catching up with my sister on the phone. In the afternoon, we had a Zoom party with my daughters, complete with a cake baked by Al, and an online card game that kept us laughing for a couple of hours. In the evening, we marked the occasion by making contributions to a variety of non-profits that are helping during the pandemic. This felt good. We capped off the day watching a movie online.

Throughout, I was in an upbeat mood. (This was helped by not reading any news.) For a cooped-up birthday during the scariest experience of my 66 years, it was lovely, memorable, and a good lesson in how much each moment is shaped by how we decide to approach it.

Now, if only the pandemic could end as quickly as Covie melted . . .

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

Mask-maker, Mask-maker, Make Me a Mask

Evelyn Herwitz · April 14, 2020 · 1 Comment

More than half-way through Passover now, I’m finding the holiday’s food and kitchen restrictions (no leavening, separate dishes and utensils) a fitting metaphor for our new reality. That, and the spread of matzah crumbs throughout our home. I’m also finding the rituals and rules about what and how to cook strangely comforting. Having our mini Seder last Wednesday night via Zoom with two dozen family and friends from across the country was wonderfully uplifting. Sticking with our Passover observance feels like an act of defiance in the face of this pandemic, that it can’t uproot everything we hold dear.

But there is still a lot to contend with, of course. Here in Massachusetts, we are being told to wear fabric face masks when going anywhere that makes physical distancing difficult, like grocery shopping. So, on Sunday, I pulled out my trusty 35-year-old Viking sewing machine and experimented with making masks out of old pillow cases.

I still love sewing, but it has become much more challenging since I had my hand surgery several years ago. Tweezers are an essential tool for threading the needle. I have to constantly be mindful not to reach quickly as I adjust the sewing foot, thread the bobbin or change stitch settings, or I’ll mash what’s left of my fingertips on metal. Then there’s the nuisance of cut threads sticking to my bandages.

Nevertheless, I persisted, using a pattern I’d found online, one magenta-and-pink and one cobalt-blue pillow case, and a few pieces of quarter-inch elastic from my five-decades-old sewing stash. I cut out enough fabric for several masks, but only finished two—in part, because I skillfully managed to sew the second one together wrong side out and had to pull all the stitches, a real challenge for my hands. I made an opening in the back for an insert. From what I’ve read online, coffee filters are considered one of the best options.

Along the way, I discovered a couple of mistakes in the directions. The biggest issue is how long to make the elastic loops to go over ears. The pattern said seven inches, which seems to be standard advice, but that’s way too big for my narrow face. So, a word to the wise: If you decide to sew your own mask, plan on the first one being a prototype that needs adjusting.

Here is a good article from The New York Times that includes everything you need to knows about wearing and making your own mask.

I hope, Dear Reader, that whatever your circumstance, whatever holiday you may have been celebrating or will be, soon, that you are staying safe and well. And if you can’t sew, here’s how to make a mask from a teeshirt that requires no stitching.

Wash Your Hands

Evelyn Herwitz · March 3, 2020 · Leave a Comment

Every day brings more scary headlines about the coronavirus. Along with all the other bad news screaming for our attention every day, it sometimes feels like we’re all on the Titanic, heading inexorably toward that fateful iceberg.

But here’s the good news: One of the best ways to avoid getting COVID-19 is also the most simple and easily accessible: washing your hands after coming in contact with public spaces. Think about ATMs, touch screens at check-out counters, doorknobs, subway hand-straps, gas pumps—you get the idea.

I’m aware of this all the time because I have to be so careful about picking up an infection in one of my digital ulcers. While hand washing is the best option (20 seconds, about as long as it takes to sing “Happy Birthday” twice), I rely on hand sanitizer because I can’t get my bandages wet, and the sanitizer dries quickly. Use sanitizer that’s at least 60 percent alcohol and rub until it’s gone.

Likewise, the best way to avoid spreading the coronavirus—or any other contagious illness—is to practice good hand hygiene out of respect for others. That, and staying home when you’re sick.

Hand washing has been a cultural and religious ritual for millennia. But only since the mid-19th century has good hand hygiene been linked to better health in Western civilization. A Hungarian doctor, Ignaz Semmelweis, is credited with first discovering the connection in 1846 when he noticed that women giving birth in the doctor/student-run maternity ward at Vienna General Hospital had a much higher mortality rate than those in the adjacent midwife-run maternity ward.

Semmelweis determined that the doctors and medical students typically made rounds in the maternity ward right after doing autopsies. Midwives, of course, did not perform autopsies. So he figured that some kind of “cadaverous particles” were being transmitted to the pregnant women. His solution was to require all doctors and medical students to wash their hands with chlorine before treating his patients in the maternity ward—and the mortality rate dropped significantly.

Less than a decade later, Florence Nightingale championed hand washing in an Italian hospital during the Crimean War and also successfully reduced the rate of infections.

While Semmelweis and Nightingale were primarily fighting the spread of bacterial infections, hand washing works for preventing the spread of viruses, too. We’re all touching our faces more than we realize. COVID-19 spreads through droplets of fluid, from face to hand to surface to hand to face. All the more reason to wash or sanitize hands after being out in public.

It will be weeks and months before we fully understand the nature and true risks of this new disease. The number of people infected is certain to increase, both because of the exponential transmission rate and the fact that more people are being tested and detected. There is real reason for concern and vigilance. We need accurate facts, reliable reporting, and scientific leadership, not conspiracy theories and blame games.

In another time of high public anxiety, during the Great Depression in 1933, newly-elected President Franklin Delano Roosevelt reassured the nation with these famous words: “[L]et me assert my firm belief that the only thing we have to fear is fear itself—nameless, unreasoning, unjustified terror which paralyzes needed efforts to convert retreat into advance.”

Those are words worth remembering and repeating right now. That, and go wash your hands.

Image: Daniel Levis Pelusi

Chain of Command

Evelyn Herwitz · February 25, 2020 · 4 Comments

For about a year, now, I’ve had a pit of calcium sticking out of the pad of my right thumb. It looks like a very small, gray pebble, but it will not budge. If I press on it or accidentally bang it, it smarts. It’s also an open wound that I have to tend very carefully to avoid infection.

Usually, when a bit of calcinosis finds its way to the surface of one of my fingers, I can either pull it out or it will pop out on its own. Not this one. Recently, when I tried twisting it with a pair of tweezers, the top broke off, but there remained a needle-like protrusion that is just as stubborn.

So, I finally gave up and saw my hand surgeon last Friday. One look under the fluoroscope, and we had the answer. That pit is the tip of a chain of calcinosis that stretches all the way down my thumb. I’ve known for years that I have a veritable Milky Way of calcium pits floating in both thumbs and other fingers, but never seen anything quite like this.

We discussed options and agreed that he would debride it in an outpatient surgical center. It would be foolhardy to try to clean out all the calcinosis, because (a) it will probably grow back and (b) the risks to my thumb’s ability to function are far too high, especially in my dominant hand. So he’ll just remove a bit at the top of the chain, so I can use my thumb with less pain. We also agreed he’d put me out rather than use local anaesthesia. Too much digging around in my thumb would make me too anxious.

He ribbed me that I always bring him difficult challenges, and I teased him back that I didn’t want him to get bored. This is the same surgeon who saved my hands two-and-a-half years ago from horrific ulcers that lifted up to reveal bone and two broken knuckles, so I trust him completely. Back then we built a great rapport and mutual respect. He told me I should teach a course on wound care.

Now I await word about a date for the procedure, as well as confirmation that the surgical center he recommended is in-network for my Medex BC/BS plan. There’s a back-up, if that doesn’t work out. Always essential to check, first.

So, once again, my hands are in good hands. I wish I didn’t need to see my surgeon, but I’m very grateful that he’s there.

Image: Sonny Ravesteijn

Best Laid Plans

Evelyn Herwitz · November 5, 2019 · 2 Comments

A week ago Monday, I was on my way home from a two-day philanthropy board meeting in New Jersey, and I had a plan. My German language class meets in Boston on Monday nights, and I didn’t want to miss it, so I had booked roundtrip flights (plus carbon offsets) from Boston to Newark far enough in advance to get a good price (usually, when we meet, I drive to New Haven and take the train). My afternoon flight back to Boston was due in around 3:30, giving me plenty of time to retrieve my car from long-term parking, drive into the city and park, then get some dinner and be at class for 6:15.

As I said, I had a plan. Air traffic in Boston, however, was in no mood to cooperate. Despite good weather, our flight was delayed in Newark by about an hour due to a busy day at Logan. Still, I figured when we landed after 4:00, I had plenty of time to get dinner. The van to the parking lot arrived right away . . . but as soon as we left the airport, we got stuck in traffic. Why? Because the Chelsea drawbridge was open. Maybe twenty minutes passed until we finally got up to the bridge and . . . the gates went down and the bridge began to rise again because another ship was sailing through. Our driver turned around and drove the back route to the lot, earning a round of applause from all of us passengers. Still, this jaunt had now taken as long as my flight.

I got to my car, it turned on (thankfully), and I started to navigate my way into Boston in what was now high rush hour traffic, but WAZE was not really clear on where to turn, so it took a bit of intuition to find my way downtown. By now it was about 5:45, still enough time to park, grab some takeout, and get to class.

However . . . when I finally reached the garage where I’d reserved a space, the entrance was blocked (are you kidding me?) due to construction. A sign said to take three left turns to get to the alternate entrance, but I was pretty frazzled and hungry at this point, it was drizzling and getting dark, one way streets in Boston can be confusing, and I couldn’t find the other entrance, so I ended up parking on the street.

Usually, street parking in Boston uses an app. Not this space. It required putting a credit card in a meter. I tried dipping my card three times, with my fingers getting numb from the cold, but couldn’t grasp the card and retrieve it fast enough. Aargh!!! I stopped a trustworthy-looking young man who was walking by and asked if he could help, which he did, and I was able to pay.

Now it was after 6:00. And I was disoriented. How do I get to class from here? Trying to figure it out from Google Maps took a few false starts, but ultimately, I found the building, got through the reception desk security and up the elevator to our meeting place at WeWorks, which is shared office space. Our class meets in one of the conference rooms, but you need a key to get in (which our instructor has). And, as I scanned the lounge, no classmates were to be found, which meant they’d already gone to the room.

As I was looking to see if I’d missed someone, I took a step . . . and tripped over a stuffed ottoman near a couch. Wham! I landed on hands and especially on my right knee. It hurt. A lot. A fellow sitting nearby asked if I was okay (“No!” I cried) and helped me up. I could still walk, fortunately, and a woman who was cleaning the kitchen area let me into the locked section of the office space. She also, at my request, kindly filled a bag of ice, which I used to reduce swelling in my knee for the next couple of hours.

No way I was going to skip class after overcoming all those obstacles! But I did leave an hour early, because I was quite hungry, tired, and still had an hour’s drive home. Al met me with a big hug and bowl of warm soup, which was exactly what I needed.

A week later, my right knee remains a bit black-and-blue and is not quite back to normal. If I continue having issues later this week, I’ll go for an X-ray to be sure I didn’t do anything other than sprain it. The rest of my fall-related aches and pains have resolved. Most importantly, I did not hurt my hands. This is the real miracle of the whole episode.

The older I get, the more the idea of falling scares me. If I can find any silver lining in this escapade, it’s the fact that my hands are unharmed, and I don’t seem to have broken anything. I didn’t give up and still attended most of the class. It was an important reminder to be mindful of where I’m stepping. And my husband gives the best hugs in the world.

Image: Alexander Schimmeck

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