Living with Scleroderma

Reflections on the Messy Complexity of Chronicity

Hearing

The Best Medicine

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On Sunday, I got totally out of my comfort zone. I’ve been taking acting classes for several years, now, and over the past sic months, have also joined with some acting friends in an informal group working on scenes. This evolved into reading a play by Selina Fillinger, POTUS: Or, Behind Every Great Dumbass Are Seven Women Trying to Keep Him Alive.

And reading this very funny, raunchy play together led to a decision to do a staged reading of said play, directed by our wonderful teacher, on Sunday in a theater space. I played Stephanie, the President’s personal secretary, who is the comic foil, a role that included running around in a pink rubber ducky inner tube and rapping the introduction to the Declaration of Independence. Yes, you read that correctly.

I have never done anything like this before, and it was a hoot. I got a lot of laughs and had a blast. My acting friends were all terrific, our director was a dream, the audience totally enjoyed it, and we just had fun. Al smiled through the whole play.

There is a lot of stress in this world. There is nothing like joining with great, talented friends to put on a show and making others laugh for a few hours. The best medicine, indeed.

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Back on the Block

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It was perfect weather for the beach on Sunday, sunny, in the 80s F, and given that we hadn’t made it to the Atlantic this season, we grabbed the chance for a day trip to Block Island. An hour’s ferry ride from the Rhode Island coast, it was our favorite vacation spot for years with our daughters, until everyone else discovered it, too, and the rents became ridiculous.

So Al and I try each year to get there on a Sunday. As luck would have it, however, given the beautiful weather, a lot of other folks had the same idea. Even as we left with plenty of time to catch the 11:30 ferry, we hit beach traffic that kept adding minutes to our arrival time. I took a GPS-recommended detour, only to have traffic get worse. Needless to say, it was not a relaxing arrival. When we finally got to Point Judith, there was no parking available, so we took a chance of parking in a four-hour spot and risking a ticket.

As it turned out, I had managed to read the ferry schedule backwards—the 11:30 ferry was the return ferry from Block Island—and the ferry to Block Island was actually departing at Noon. We got to the top deck of the very crowded boat with about 10 minutes to spare.

The island was hot and crowded. Still, we made the best of the afternoon, grabbing a good lunch at Persephone’s and then walking to the Town Beach, where we rented chairs and an umbrella. The tide was coming in, so when we took our walk up and down the shore, waves rushed and splashed. My pants got soaked, but I didn’t care, because the sand was cool and the surf, refreshing. And given the heat, my pants dried out quickly. We had our favorite dinner at the Beachcomber, Al got his ice cream at the Ice Cream Place, and we made the 6:15 ferry back, once again with about 10 minutes to spare. When we got to our car, well past a row of similarly parked cars with orange tickets on their windshields, ours had not been tagged. Hurray!

But the highlight of the trip came, surprisingly, on the ferry ride back. We were sitting on the top deck, once again, because there was no room on the other two decks. All of a sudden, people on one side started pointing and raising their phones to take pictures, standing on the benches to get a better view. I was able to get a glimpse of the phenomenon—a pod of dolphins, maybe a dozen or more, leaping through the water, heading toward the island. Everyone was thrilled, like a bunch of little kids. It was great. In that one moment, we were all in awe of Nature’s wonders. Everyone was smiling.

I’ve never seen wild dolphins before. Glorious. May your week be full of magnificent surprises.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

Dappled

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There’s a word in Japanese for the light that filters through trees:

Transliterated as komorebi (kō-mō-reh-bee), it is made up of the Japanese characters for tree, leaking, and sun—meaning, literally, the sunlight that leaks through trees. Komorebi refers to the ever-shifting way that sunlight filters through tree branches and boughs, creating dancing patterns on the ground and illuminating the backside of leaves. It’s one of my favorite things to discover when I walk outdoors. And I love the fact that there’s a Japanese word to capture that sensation.

So, when Al and I took advantage of perfect summer weather on Sunday, we went to Garden in the Woods, a 45-acre refuge for native plants in Framingham, Mass., and I tried to capture komorebi with my iPhone’s camera, as well as some delicate plants—and, of course, some turtles. It made for a lovely, peaceful afternoon. Here’s what I found. Enjoy.

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Best Vacation Ever

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As a child, I used to watch a public TV program about Japanese brush painting, and I learned how to paint the images that the artist demonstrated. It has been a dream for decades to travel to Japan. And so, for two weeks in June, Al and I made that dream come true. Back home since Thursday night, after a phenomenal trip—strenuous, but worth every minute.

We flew from Boston to Montreal, stayed overnight, then made the 12-hour flight to Tokyo, where we stayed for a couple of nights in a ryokan, a traditional Japanese inn with tatami mats as flooring and a futon bed on the floor. Then it was on to Kyoto by the Shinkansen bullet train. Our accommodation there was a rented home in a family neighborhood, lovingly preserved and decorated. The bedrooms were up a narrow staircase hidden behind a sliding bookcase.

We spent five days in Kyoto, which included a day trip to Nara, the ancient capital of Japan where deer are sacred and roam free. Then we took a Shinkansen to Hiroshima, where we stayed in another traditionally decorated apartment in a residential neighborhood. Our time there included a powerful visit to the Hiroshima Peace Memorial Museum, which commemorates the victims of the atomic bomb attack on August 6, 1945. We also took a day trip to the nearby island of Miyajima, home to UNESCO World Heritage temples and shrines. Then we moved on by train and ferry to spend three days on the island of Naoshima, known for its art museums and galleries. On our way back to Tokyo, we caught a glimpse of Mount Fuji.

Yes, it was another of my super-charged itineraries. We saw exquisite gardens, ancient temples and shrines, museums, shops, street life, and navigated the food scene. Google Translate was a huge help, both for speaking with people and translating signs and other text.

I will be thinking about this trip for years to come. It was inspiring, transformative, and, yes, challenged my physical endurance. But I am so, so glad we went, as is Al. Here are some pictures. Enjoy.

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Until Next Year

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Last Wednesday night marked the beginning of Passover, when we always host the first seder for our extended family. Al’s first cousins always host the second seder. This is a family tradition that dates back to Al’s mother and her youngest sister, who alternated hosting the two festive meals every year, when we join Jews around the world in retelling the Exodus story.

Even though we share the meals between the two families, it’s still a lot of work. My hands were in rough shape as the holiday approached, with six fingers in bandages, due to persistent ulcers and calcium bits that had chosen just this time of year to travel up to the surface and hang around without popping out. This feels like having grains of sand stuck under your skin. No fun.

Fortunately, our younger daughter had already planned to come up from Philadelphia to help out with the cooking for three days. Yes, it takes that long, because I can’t help myself. I always plan a very special meal with lots of courses. Even when I’ve mastered all the recipes and know how to pace myself with the meal prep, it’s just a lot of work.

So, we cooked and shopped and cooked together for several days. She did the lion’s share of the chopping and mixing and frying and baking, while I directed and handled a variety of smaller details that were essential for the final meal. Here’s what we made: Egyptian charoset, which is a mixture of dates, raisins, ground nuts and sugar; hard boiled eggs; pickled salmon (a family favorite, as an appetizer); Egyptian potato soup; spinach patties; roasted carrots, beets, and turnips; a salad of oranges, avocados, red onions, arugula, and a cinnamon vinaigrette dressing; apricot sponge cake, chocolate chip meringue cookies, strawberries, grapes, and chocolate for dessert. And, of course, there was plenty of matzah, including gluten free.

It was a hit. Worth all the effort. We had fun cooking together, though I was quite tired afterwards.

Learning how to ask for and accept help is a crucial part of living with scleroderma. I’m very grateful to our daughter for being so willing to step up and keep the family tradition going. Until next year . . .

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.