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“You must do the thing you think you cannot do”

Evelyn Herwitz · July 29, 2014 · 2 Comments

At the FDR Museum and Library in Hyde Park, N.Y., there is a wooden box with a metal handle. You can pull up on the handle to lift the hidden weight inside. The weight is as heavy as the steel braces worn by Franklin Delano Roosevelt to support his body while standing and walking, after his legs were paralyzed by polio when he was 39. The handle is very hard to move.

Freedom from Fear Hyde Park 7-27-14Whatever your politics (the arguments that raged 80 years ago during FDR’s presidency about the role of government in our daily lives versus unfettered free market capitalism could be cut and pasted into today’s news reports), Roosevelt’s struggle to overcome polio is one of the most inspiring stories I’ve encountered about facing down a chronic illness.

We visited Hyde Park on Sunday, the last stop in our week of day trips that included beaches, dinosaur tracks, the Nathan Hale Homestead, country roads and villages, a woodland hike and Shakespeare al fresco. Though I was familiar with some of FDR’s history and had visited the Roosevelt family home when I was very young (to our daughter Emily’s amusement, I kept remarking that it all looked much smaller than I recalled, undoubtedly because I was about three at the time), I had never understood the full implications of FDR’s illness.

In the summer of 1921, Roosevelt, then a rising star in the Democratic Party who had already served two terms in the New York State Senate, three years as Assistant Secretary of the Navy under Woodrow Wilson, and had been nominated for Vice President on the 1920 Democratic ticket with James Cox, went to visit a New York Boy Scout camp prior to his vacation on Campobello Island, Canada. While sharing food and water with the campers, he was probably exposed to the polio virus.

Not long after, as he was sailing on the Bay of Fundy, FDR lost his balance and fell into the icy waters. The next day, he began to complain of back pain. Within hours of going for a swim, his legs weakened. Three days later, he could no longer stand. He was diagnosed with infantile paralysis, known as polio, on August 25.

The diagnosis was devastating to FDR and his family. He decided to remove himself from politics that fall in order to focus fully on his recovery, but it took another seven years—seven years—for him to regain enough strength and stamina to reenter the political arena. He filled those years with a rigorous regimen of exercise to strengthen his upper body, hot springs treatments and swimming.

By the spring of 1922, he had learned to use the heavy steel braces that stabilized both legs from hip to ankle, locking his knees so they wouldn’t buckle, and was able to walk with assistance. He devised a nimble wheelchair using a dining chair with bicycle-like wheels, a vast improvement over the cumbersome wheelchairs of the day. In the family Springwood estate in Hyde Park, he designed a wheelchair lift worked with hand-pulled ropes, like a large dumbwaiter, that he manipulated to hoist himself between floors. He invited friends and family to keep him company, laugh and joke as he did his exercises, to lift his spirits and normalize the experience for his children.

Two years later, FDR tested the political waters and the public’s reaction to his disability by introducing New York Governor Al Smith as candidate for president at the 1924 Democratic Convention. Walking to the podium with the aid of crutches, he was met with a three-minute ovation—a remarkable outburst of support at a time when people with disabilities were all too often treated as weak and mentally defective, marginalized by their families and isolated by society.

In 1928, FDR ran for governor of New York and won the first of two terms in office, during which he pushed a progressive agenda to aid individuals who suffered in the aftermath of the 1929 stock market crash—policies that helped him to win the presidency in 1932 as the Great Depression deepened.

While his political acumen was key to his political success, FDR’s battle with polio is also considered by historians to be one of the most critical factors in his ability to connect with average Americans struggling to survive during that dark period. His wife, Eleanor, often called his disability a “blessing in disguise”—a deep lesson in patience and persistence, qualities so essential for a President who led the country out of the Depression and through most of World War II.

In FDR’s own words: “You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, ‘I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.’ . . . You must do the thing you think you cannot do.”

For more about FDR’s battle with polio, see this excellent article from the FDR Library.

Image: “BreakFree,” by Edwina Sandys, granddaughter of Winston Churchill, carved from segments of the Berlin Wall, outside the FDR Library in Hyde Park, N.Y.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com.

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State of Mind

Evelyn Herwitz · July 22, 2014 · Leave a Comment

It’s finally here, a week when Al and I kick back and take advantage of all that New England has to offer in the summer, beautiful and fascinating places that other people travel miles and miles to visit, but just happen to be within a few hours’ drive of our home.

We got into summer day-tripping a few years ago to economize, and now it’s become a highlight of the year. We started off on Sunday with an afternoon in Boston’s South End, browsing stores and artist lofts and outdoor booths filled with all kinds of crafts, a massive indoor vintage market (read, upscale term for flea market), plus a farmer’s market.

Strawberry Banke 7-21-14On Monday, we drove up to Portsmouth, N.H., to Strawbery Banke, a living history museum covering four centuries of life in one of that city’s oldest communities. Period homes are surrounded by heritage gardens, including one with a children’s tea party set amidst fanciful fairy houses.

I wouldn’t mind living there for a while. In the fairy garden, I mean.

Even as I’m enjoying the break from routine, the glorious weather so far and discovering regional treasures, I’m having some trouble separating out from what else is going on in the world. When you leave your home for a period of days or weeks, it’s easier to take a complete mental break. This is essential to recharging and relaxing, so critical to maintaining health and well-being.

But I can’t seem to tear myself away from following news in the Middle East. Trying to set a limit, but I feel compelled to keep up, even as I find the developments so stressful. Too much is at stake.

So I was grateful to find an oasis of peace right here in our hometown Sunday night. A few years ago, Al and I decided to initiate an interfaith dialogue between our synagogue and a local mosque. Since that time, members of both our communities have studied texts together, broken bread and come to understand how much our faith traditions have in common.

Weeks before the most recent hostilities broke out between Israel and Hamas, our friends at the mosque had invited us to join them for a Ramadan break-fast. And so, this past Sunday evening, a group of our congregants and our rabbi went to the mosque and shared in a study session about the meaning of the Ramadan fast. We explained fasting in our Jewish tradition. We asked questions. And we learned, once again, how much we have in common.

What made the deepest impression on me, as I listened, was how both Ramadan and Yom Kippur are intended for introspection, self-improvement, mending relationships, bringing goodness into the world and drawing closer to God. Both faith traditions are deeply committed to peace.

I will carry that awareness with me as I follow the news and pray that the best in both sides will prevail. And I’ll try to create my own inner space of peace, appreciating what is good and beautiful all around me, as I take a break from headlines, deadlines and most of my responsibilities for a week. The alternative is to wear myself out, and that won’t do anyone any good, especially me.

After all, vacation, no matter where you are or how you do it, is really only a state of mind.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com.

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And I Didn’t Get Sick

Evelyn Herwitz · July 15, 2014 · 2 Comments

Sitting in St. Louis’s Lambert Airport on Monday morning as I type on my laptop, watching fellow passengers gather at my gate. Surprisingly, some people are actually sitting and talking with their neighbors, rather than burying their noses in cell phones or tablets. One woman is reading a book. As in, the kind made out of paper.

photo-1But plenty of others are typing on laptops, like me, or talking business on smartphones (loudly—don’t they know others are listening?) or texting or checking emails or playing games on tablets. There are comfy armchairs next to electrical outlets to accommodate all our gizmos. I have managed to get everything into my carry-on and purse, so no worries ahead about losing luggage. I’m getting better at air travel since my trip here last year, when my return flight connected through JFK and my checked bag disappeared for 24 hours.

Despite Midwest heat and humidity, the sky is robin’s egg blue with puffy cumulous clouds. A pleasant end to a lovely weekend with my older sister and family, including a visit to the exquisite St.Louis Art Museum, great meals featuring my brother-in-law’s home-grown vegetables, an al fresco Italian dinner, Shabbat services at a local congregation that felt just like home, sharing the Cardinal’s ups and downs against the Pirates and the Brewers, a Sunday brunch with friends, the World Cup finale, and a drizzly performance of Gershwin’s Porgy and Bess at the outdoor Muny Opera (one hour rain delay halfway through Act 1, and the show was cancelled before the last three songs due to approaching thunderstorms, but even so, the music and acting were terrific).

The highlight of our weekend together was hearing my sister, a talented flutist, perform wonderful music with her woodwind quintet at a local bistro. That, and sharing old family stories. “Are you making that up?” she asked me, laughing, since I can always remember more about the past than she, even as we’re both getting a bit fuzzy about recent events. Ah, the power of longterm memory.

Travel remains a challenge—inevitably, the bandages on my finger ulcers get messy and loose, and I need to manage my energy and joints. Getting through security is exhausting, with all the lifting and sorting, organizing purse, shoes, laptop in gray rectangular buckets and then reorganizing everything quickly so as not hold up the person behind me. But fellow travelers have been very helpful, especially with hoisting my bag into the overhead storage bin and retrieving it. And so far, no one’s been too pushy or impatient.

I also decided to pay extra to fly direct this time, to save wear and tear on my body. Definitely the way to go, when possible. So much less stressful, all around.

Best of all (though perhaps I’m tempting fate, here), I have not gotten sick on this trip as on previous ventures in the recent past. No infected ulcers. No cellulitis. No cold virus. No eye infection. No rotten tooth. My worst physical ailment has been reduced hearing and stuffy ears for about 12 hours after landing. All good, and encouraging.

Travel doesn’t always have to mean setting myself back. It can just mean having a great visit with my Big Sis.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com.

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Barnacles

Evelyn Herwitz · August 20, 2013 · 2 Comments

Overheard on the Block Island Ferry this past Sunday . . .

Boy, about 10, looking over the railing at sea foam as the ferry pulls out of Old Harbor, heading back to the Rhode Island coast: “Look, there’s barnacles in the water! Do I have barnacles?”

His older brother, maybe 11: “No, you don’t get barnacles unless you’re under the water for a long time, like maybe two weeks.”

Fortunately, the older brother is correct, and the boy has attracted no barnacles of his own. The ferry’s powerful engine hums as we pick up speed and cruise past the island’s cliff-like dunes, dull copper beneath overcast skies.

I lean back against the blue bench along the middle deck, watching the dunes and the North Lighthouse slip past, and contemplate barnacles, those tiny, cream-colored sea creatures that attach themselves to boulders and boats and whales in lacy patterns and feed on plankton within their sharp, crusty shells. No need to move anywhere once they find a home. They just latch on and draw sustenance from whatever drifts their way.

Like worries.

I have a few of my own that I’d like to shed, worries about my health, money, work, family transitions, our aging golden retriever, reactionary politics, the NSA, the Middle East, climate change.

But they’re tenacious, clinging to my subconscious, scraping me when I indulge them, cutting. No easy way to dislodge them and toss them back into the sea.

The ferry cruises now at full speed across open ocean, heading to the mainland. A small red tugboat pulls what appears to be a stranded white yacht. On the horizon, sailboats catch the evening breeze. I relax into the rhythm of the boat rising and falling over light waves. Concerns that have dogged me all day when I should have been enjoying myself magically evaporate into the moist sea air.

I’ve been rereading Melville’s brilliant Moby Dick this summer. As the ferry surges forward, I recall Ishmael’s opening monologue:

Whenever I find myself growing grim about the mouth; whenever it is a damp, drizzly November in my soul; whenever I find myself involuntarily pausing before coffin warehouses, and bringing up the rear of every funeral I meet; and especially whenever my hypos get such an upper hand of me, that it requires strong moral principle to prevent me from deliberately stepping into the street, and methodically knocking people’s hats off—then I account it high time to get to the sea as soon as I can.

A flock of cormorants fly in formation, skimming the water. The setting sun burnishes blue-black waves to a salmon-pink patina.

From saltwater we came. Perhaps that is why the sea is so soothing. Sail on, sail on, swift enough to evade the barnacle’s pincers, slow enough to cast angst adrift. At least ’til landfall.

Photo Credit: shoothead via Compfight cc

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com.

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Vacation State of Mind

Evelyn Herwitz · July 23, 2013 · 2 Comments

It was blazing hot last week here in Massachusetts—‘90s and high humidity—too hot, even for me, once again this summer. On the plus side, however, we were also on vacation, hanging out at home and doing day trips. Perfect weather for the beach.

Only one problem: I can’t swim in the ocean with ulcers on my fingers. Too much risk of infection. So we just spent one day, last Monday, a real scorcher, at the seashore. The water was wonderfully warm, and I was able to wade up to my thighs, the next best thing to swimming.

For the rest of the week, we escaped the heat and humidity by playing tourist in our own backyard and immersing ourselves in history—from dinosaur bones to the Dead Sea Scrolls, from Emily Dickinson’s reclusive world to whaling ship lore.

One evening, we watched a classic 1921 Swedish silent film, The Phantom Carriage, with live piano accompaniment. Two other nights, we enjoyed free outdoor concerts. We met Al’s infant grand-niece and took her and her parents on a Swan Boat ride in the Boston Public Garden. Later that evening, we paid respects to the site of the Boston Marathon bombing.

On our last day, Sunday, the humidity finally broke, and we headed out to Plimoth Plantation, a recreation of 17th Century life among the native Wampanoags and English settlers who arrived on the Mayflower.

Here we met Phillip, a Wampanoag descendant and interpreter, who wore his hair half-shaved, half braided, as his ancestors did, to avoid entanglement with a drawn bow. He explained all the ways the Wampanoags made use of nature’s bounty to thrive along the Massachusetts coast—building bark longhouses that provided ample heat and comfort throughout the winter, constructing summer huts from reeds that swelled with moisture to become rainproof, planting beans next to corn so the tendrils would curl up the stalks, shading the roots with squash leaves and blossoms that minimized weed growth. There were game and fish aplenty in the forests, rivers and sea. “We had everything we needed,” he said.

In the nearby English community, we chatted with interpreters who reenacted the lives of actual settlers. One young woman rocked in her dark thatched roof house, clothed in a long linen skirt and yellow vest, stitching a napkin’s hem, and told us how hard life was, how much she missed her old home in back in Surrey. The only good thing about coming here, she said, was the promise of owning land, something her husband, a cooper, could never have dreamed of back in England. When asked why they did not call themselves Pilgrims, she explained, “Pilgrims are people who travel a long way to a holy land. This is far from a holy place. It’s but a wilderness.”

Same land. Two diametrically opposed world views. I couldn’t have asked for a better example of how mind-set shapes experience.

So here I sit, typing on my laptop, inching back into my normal routine, pondering. Vacation, we discovered this year, is a state of mind. You don’t have to travel far to find it. And (I am certainly not the first to observe), how we frame our experiences defines every encounter. It’s all too easy to lapse into longing for what you lack in the midst of all the plenty you have yet to recognize. The best respite from struggle is gratitude.

The trick is to maintain that vacation awareness—that ability to step back from daily demands and clutter, to pause and truly see—in order to appreciate and make the most of what’s right here, right now.

I’ll keep trying.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com.

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