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Snow Day

Evelyn Herwitz · January 9, 2024 · Leave a Comment

On Sunday we had our first big snow of the season, 15.5 inches, officially. Thankfully, the power stayed on despite the heavy, wet snow, although the pole that holds our bird feeder snapped under the weight. Al shoveled our drive and walkway three times, more than earning a good night’s sleep. I clomped through deep snow in our backyard to rescue the feeder and hang it by the back deck, so the birds could still find some food in the storm. Inside, our home stayed warm and cozy, as the world around us slowed down.

I always love this kind of snow, early in winter, before it turns grubby and sloppy and monotonous. The transformation is stunning. Snow outlines lacy tree branches, drags down evergreen boughs, and covers roofs like thick layers of buttercream frosting. Side roads stay white, even after plowing, with high borders lining both sides. Only a few cars venture out, and no planes drone overhead. Quiet reigns.

On Monday afternoon, I bundled up in a long sweater under my down coat, snow boots, wool hat, warm mittens, and sunglasses, and set out to see how the neighborhood had changed.

School was canceled to give the city time to clean up after the weekend storm, but I only saw one dad pulling two of his kids on a red plastic sled, while the other two walked alongside. One of the kids on the sled, his cheeks bright pink, licked a huge ball of snow. I used to love that wintry treat, too, when I his age. Also making snowmen, but so far, none to be seen.

Elsewhere, a few neighbors were shoveling their drives or brushing off cars. Most folks had, like Al, done the main clearing on Sunday. You could tell who had snow blowers by the wide paths along sidewalks that were already melted down to pavement. An icicle shattered on someone’s front steps. Dollops of snow, like whipped cream, clung to branches. Snow covered half of a neighbor’s roof, while the other half had melted to reveal an array of black solar panels.

Aside from enjoying the scenery, the best part of my walk was savoring the moist air that eased my winter-indoors-too-dry nose and eyes, and the fact that it was warm enough to walk with my mittened hands outside my pockets for the whole mile-and-a-quarter route. The air smelled fresh and clean. My head was much clearer when I got home. As I wrote this post, I could hear a red-tailed hawk calling somewhere nearby.

All of this will wash away by mid-week, in another storm, but rain this time. So, here’s to living in the present moment and enjoying all the beauty that surrounds us, each day. You only have to look to find it.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Through Rain and Gloom

Evelyn Herwitz · December 19, 2023 · 2 Comments

It’s another one of those weeks when I have a cluster of medical appointments. And they involve a lot of driving. Monday dawned with a deluge of rain, which made the prospect of driving into Boston yesterday morning all the more delightful. Wednesday, the next double appointment day, will at least be sunny.

Both ways yesterday, the driving was intense. Visibility in the worst of the Nor’easter downpour (at least without snow, thank goodness) was about ten car-lengths. And, of course, there were some geniuses on the Mass Pike who chose to ignore all the electronic signs that observed that “wipers on means headlights on” and oh, by the way, this is the law.

The one big blessing in all this was that traffic was not nearly as heavy as usual, perhaps because people are taking off for the holidays ahead of time, or because they were smart enough to stay home. Despite all the rain, I was able to make the drive in a little over an hour, even driving below the speed limit.

I could have canceled and stayed home. But appointments are hard to come by, there’s never a convenient time, and I didn’t want to wait another few months to reschedule.

Most importantly, it was good to have my dental check-up and learn that my teeth have not resorbed more. It was also good to see my wonderful cardiologist, who gave me an A+ on my ECG and said my Type II pulmonary hypertension seems to be well-c0ntrolled with my current medication. There’s no cure for it, but I’m holding steady. And I need to exercise more. I know, I know. I will try to do better.

I was tired when I got home, but I made it safely and got the reassurances I needed that all is well, all things considered. Worth driving in a deluge.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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600

Evelyn Herwitz · December 12, 2023 · 8 Comments

There’s something to be said for persistence. Or maybe just a well-honed habit. Whatever the reason, this is my 600th post on Living With Scleroderma. As of January, I will have been writing this blog for 12 years.

My body has aged and changed since that first post. Most notably, my hands required serious revision surgeries in 2017 and a long recovery. I developed Type II Pulmonary Hypertension in recent years (though I probably have had it, undiagnosed, for much longer). My mind is not as supple as it was when I started this project. My eyes require considerable tending for Sjogren’s dryness. I drop stuff too often. I need more sleep to function. And my hair is certainly grayer. Regardless, the fact that I remain healthy enough to keep writing is a profound blessing.

Here’s what I value about this blog: By giving voice to my experiences with this complex disease, I’ve become much more grounded. I no longer feel embarrassed when someone asks about my odd looking hands or stares at them. I no longer shy from talking about scleroderma with others. I no longer feel ashamed or awkward about it.

The other piece that I value highly: Hearing from you, Dear Reader, and how my weekly musings have helped you in your own life, with or without this disease. That’s the real reason I keep writing.

And so, my best wishes to you and yours for good health and joy this holiday season. That’s something we all need in the coming year. Be well.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Into Winter

Evelyn Herwitz · December 5, 2023 · Leave a Comment

It’s less than three weeks, now, until the winter solstice arrives here in the Northern Hemisphere, and I feel like a bear that’s ready to hibernate. By early afternoon, as the sun is already well past midpoint in the sky, I start yawning. I just want to wrap myself in a cozy blanket and take a nap.

To help me face the cold weather that has already arrived, I’ve been loading up on more warm clothes, thanks to Black Friday sales. My new winter boots, with toasty ankle linings, just arrived Monday, and they feel great. So did a soft wool turtleneck dress, a pair of gloves with open fingers that can be covered with a mitten cap, and a supply of more loose teas. The last item, on its way, is a little rechargeable light I can clamp onto a book while reading in bed under my down quilt.

So, I guess I’m as ready as I can be. My good, long, down winter coat still fits, and I finally was able to unjam the zipper to get another season’s use out of it. A good thing, because anything comparable to what cost me only a couple of hundred dollars a decade or so ago would now cost three times that. I checked.

And so I write, in lined leggings, a sweatshirt dress, a shawl, and wrist warmers, on Monday afternoon, with the electric heat on. I’m still cold. I think I’ll wrap my legs in a blanket, too.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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The Power of Art to Heal

Evelyn Herwitz · November 21, 2023 · Leave a Comment

It’s been one of those stretches when all of my medical appointments jammed together. Since last Thursday, I’ve had one tele-med plus two in-person appointments at Boston Medical. Thank goodness for remote visits, or I would have had to drive into Boston to the same place on three different days instead of “just” two.

Even so, I am grateful for the excellent medical care I receive. I was reminded of this all the more while recently watching a new documentary, Angel Applicant, by filmmaker Ken August Meyer.

Meyer lives with diffuse scleroderma, the most aggressive form, and he tells of how he found comfort and insight into his experience from the art of Paul Klee, who died of complications from the disease in 1940, seven years after being exiled from Nazi Germany to Bern, Switzerland. Klee is a favorite of mine, too, for his luminous paintings, as well as for my sense of kinship with him as an artist who created some of his best works during the three years that he wrestled with systemic sclerosis.

Meyer’s film is the most meaningful, poignant, and true story of what it means to live with scleroderma that I have yet encountered. Though it is not in wide distribution, it won multiple awards this year and is currently available to stream on DOC NYC for $15, through November 26. I recommend it highly. You can find the link information here.

I must add that it was not easy for me to watch. Meyer’s experiences, though more debilitating than my own, resonated deeply. Everyone’s encounter with scleroderma is unique, and his has been brutal. Even as I have been living with my own version of this inscrutible disease for more than four decades, now, I gained a different sense of what I’ve been up against all these years that really shook me. At the same time, I profoundly appreciated how he has come to terms with all that scleroderma has thrown at him through his exploration of Klee’s exquisite art. We each have to find our own path in dealing with chronic illness. Meyer’s journey is inspiring.

Above all, the love of Meyer’s family and friends has been essential to his ability to persist through life-threatening challenges. I feel equally blessed.

To you and yours, Dear Reader, my best wishes for a healthy and happy Thanksgiving. Be well.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

Image: Communing with Paul Klee at the Museum Berggruen in Berlin, 2018. Photo by Al.

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