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Curios

Evelyn Herwitz · July 2, 2019 · 4 Comments

It took me twenty years, but I finally set up my collection of curios this past Sunday. We had packed up my lovely figurines when we moved to our current home in June of 1999, and they had remained boxed ever since.

It’s not that I didn’t care about them anymore. Quite the contrary, each piece is quite special. But I kept putting off the task, and putting it off, and putting it off—because I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to do it without dropping and breaking them. My fingers just aren’t that nimble anymore.

I began collecting glass animals when I was a kid. Every summer, our family would vacation on Cape Cod, and one of the highlights of the trip was a visit to a store in Hyannis where an artist would manipulate sticks of glass over a bunsen burner to create whimsical creatures. If my parents had let me, I would have watched him for hours. Among my favorite purchases with allowance saved for weeks were a white horse rearing on its hind legs, a pair of pink elephants, a tiny red hippo, a dove, a turquoise dolphin.

At some point along the way, I was given my paternal grandfather’s collection of miniatures. These included two painted metal orchestras—one made up of frogs, and the other of monkeys, elephants, foxes and a devilish conductor. There were some carved wooden figurines, and some of carved ivory, as well. Eventually I found an enclosed glass curio box and displayed them in the living room of our prior home for many years.

I missed them. But with all the bandages and ulcers and Raynaud’s and hand surgery, I just couldn’t get myself to risk displaying them again. That is, until this past year, when I began keeping a Bullet Journal, which is a great system for keeping track of just about anything you need to get done. For my list of things I wanted to accomplish around the house, I added in setting up my curio collection.

Now, you can keep pushing off items in a Bullet Journal and rewriting them in the next week’s or month’s to-do list. But after rewriting an item enough times, you realize that either you should take it off the list, or just do it, already. Given that June marked the twentieth anniversary of our move, it really was high time to take care of it.

So last week, I found the box with my collection, marked “fragile,” on the top shelf of my closet. It was filled with plastic ziplock bags, each containing about ten figurines, carefully wrapped in tissues. But where was the curio display box? Upstairs, downstairs, in the basement I searched, to no avail. Then Al came home, and within a half-hour, found it in the basement—in a box marked “glass box.” Well.

The glass box was in perfect shape, cushioned by yellowed newspapers from June 1999. I figured out a good spot to hang it in the living room, measured the box and marked the wall, and tried to hammer a picture hook at the correct spot. It slipped and dropped to the floor. I tried again, using a pair of needle-nosed pliers to hold the nail. This time I was able to start it, but the angle was wrong as I tapped with a tack hammer. Time to ask for help if I wanted to finish before dark. Al took care of the hooks and hanging the box.

Now it was time to place the figurines. As I unwrapped each one, it was like meeting old friends. Using a pair of round-nosed pliers from my jewelry-making supplies, I was able to place them without too much trouble. That is, until one piece, a green glass octopus, slipped, bounced on the floor and disappeared. I stopped myself from trying to move things around to find it, since I didn’t want to cause any more damage or knock another figurine out of the box. The whole process took several hours. Finally, when everything was in place, I poked around on the floor. There was the octopus, lodged between some CDs in Al’s music collection—in tact!

So, now all my little friends are back on display. I took my time, worked my way around the dexterity issue with the right tools, and didn’t break anything. And I can finally take that task off my list.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Filed Under: Body, Mind, Sight, Touch Tagged With: adaptive tools, body-mind balance, finger ulcers, hands, managing chronic disease, mindfulness, Raynaud's

Summer Solstice

Evelyn Herwitz · June 25, 2019 · Leave a Comment

At Stonehenge in England this past Friday, about 10,000 people gathered to watch the sun rise in perfect alignment with the entrance to the ancient stone circle. The summer solstice has come and gone in the Northern Hemisphere. Even as we mark the beginning of warm summer months, the days are now growing shorter once again.

Somehow, I wish the days could just stay longer for a little while. Even as we have months of (I hope) balmy weather ahead, there’s something that always makes me a little sad when the solstice passes, and our half of the Earth begins to tip every so slowly away from the sun for the next six months. It’s all in my head, I know. But still.

My hands and feet are just so much happier during the long days of summer. That is, of course, so long as I stay out of overly air-conditioned buildings. I took advantage of a sale this past week and got some new wrist warmers to add to my collection—as essential in the summer when stores and restaurants insist on maintaining arctic temperatures, as in the winter when arctic air blows into New England from Canada.

At least I can now take my neighborhood walks without a jacket or even a sweater. It’s easier to get out the door for appointments, too. Less stuff to put on.

Time to savor summer, even as daylight slowly dwindles.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Home Alone

Evelyn Herwitz · May 28, 2019 · Leave a Comment

Al is away this week, in Israel, volunteering on an archeological dig. It’s a dream he’s had for at least a year, and he’s having the time of his life. It’s also an activity that I cannot share. We agreed that my hands are simply not capable of the sifting and digging involved. There’s a heat wave there, with temperatures over 100 degrees Fahrenheit by afternoon. The group has to get up by 4:00 in the morning to arrive at the dig site by 6:00. Work for the day finishes by noon, to avoid the worst of the brutal sun. Not my kind of schedule.

So I’m very glad that we were able to make this work for him. And fine being here on my own. But this is the longest stretch we’ve been apart—nine days—in six years, the last time involving another trip he made to Israel to visit our older daughter when she was living in Tel Aviv.

It’s an adjustment. I have good friends and neighbors that I know I can count on if I need any help. But I’m not about to call for assistance with all the little ways that Al fills in for my hands on a daily basis.

On Monday morning, for instance, the ants decided Memorial Day was the perfect time to march into my office, which is a renovated porch. The inner wall is the back of our chimney, and I noticed a tell-tale pile of fine dirt along one edge where the brick meets the carpet. A few industrious, tiny brown ants were scurrying hither and yon. There were also a few flying ants (not termites, I checked) that had chosen this very sunny day to flit about.

This is an annual spring phenomenon, so I was more annoyed than surprised. I brought up the portable vacuum from the basement, put the hose pieces together carefully so as not to bang my fingers, and sucked up the dirt (and a few ants, no doubt), then sprayed some Raid around the base of the brick wall.

The next problem, once the ants appeared vanquished (I won’t know for a few days if the swarm is over), was dealing with the fumes from the insecticide. I had a lot of writing to do, and I didn’t want to be forced out of my office by the smell (and sitting with those chemicals all day). Only problem is that the sliding door to our deck in my office is hard to open, but even harder for me to latch shut. Al always does this for me. So that option was out.

There is a bay window that has two panels you open with a crank. I never open them, because the cranks are not easy for me to manipulate. But I didn’t really have a choice. I cranked one window a few turns, only to realize that the top was stuck shut. So I cranked it closed and tried the other side. Same problem. The only other window in my office has no screen, and I couldn’t force it open, anyway.

As they say, necessity is the mother of invention. Out I went, into our side yard, armed with a tack hammer, planning to use its pronged end to leverage open the upper half of the window. I didn’t want to damage the vinyl frame, so I worked my tool carefully up the length of the stuck edge. It only took a few easy tugs, and the window opened its full length. I must admit, I was pretty proud of myself.

I spent the rest of the day writing, with plenty of fresh air and no more ant activity. The only problem with the open window on a sunny holiday was that my next-door neighbor, whom I rarely hear, was out gardening for several hours, chatting with some other folks who were helping or visiting, I couldn’t quite tell. Certainly her right, on a beautiful day, but (grumble, grumble) I would have preferred less of a distraction.

This is where working in a newsroom years ago comes in handy. I can still screen out other people’s conversations when I’m deep into my writing. And that’s basically what I did. By the time I came up for air, it was after 6:00 p.m. I made good progress. When I cranked the window, it closed easily.

I’m leaving the vacuum upstairs until I’m sure the ants are gone. I’m hoping that’s the worst of my problems this week. (Friday morning, the day before Al left, he discovered that our hot water tank in the basement was leaking, a problem that involved a seven hour plumber’s visit, a new tank, and a lot of money. Fortunately this happened while Al was still here, or I would have been a lot more upset.)

My next challenge: taking out the garbage without screwing up my hands or breaking the bag. I think I can handle it. But the recycling can wait until Al gets home.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Readymade

Evelyn Herwitz · May 21, 2019 · 2 Comments

As the weather finally warms up here in Central New England, I decided on Sunday to take advantage of sales and buy a pair of summer pants. Off to the mall I went, hoping for some good luck. I really don’t enjoy shopping for clothes much anymore. I’m particular, it’s difficult to find something that fits properly, and the mirror and neon lighting can be quite cruel. In addition, all the dressing and undressing can be quite tiring on my hands. But I had some free time, the sales looked good, and I was in the right mood to give it the old college try.

The first store I tried was a disappointment. None of the pants fit properly—either too baggy or too wrinkled. As a seamstress, I know how pants are supposed to fit without “smile lines” in the seat. I also look for quality fabric and workmanship. No luck. I did, however, find a nice summer sweater on markdown, so the visit wasn’t a total loss. (Never can have enough sweaters, year-round!)

So long as I’d made the trek, I decided to check out one more store. They, too, had a good sale on pants. This time, I found a pair that fit perfectly, right off the rack. Only one problem: I couldn’t zip up the zipper all the way. This wasn’t a matter of fit; it was a matter of workmanship. The pants had a left side invisible zipper with a small pull tab, and I could not grasp it firmly enough to pull it above the waistband seam. The seam was just a bit too bulky for the zipper to easily slide past. The pull tab hurt my fingers. And there was no sense in buying pants that I couldn’t fasten properly.

Fortunately, the same style was also available in several other fabrics, and a pair of navy blue pants not only fit, but also the same type of invisible zipper worked easily. So I bought them, happy with my find at a 30 percent discount.

As I drove home, I once again thought that I really need to finally figure out how to sew a basic pants pattern that fits and just use that for the future. I had tried this several years ago, but gotten discouraged with the results. Maybe this summer is the right time to try again. Sure would solve a lot of problems.

Meanwhile, I’m glad I found what I needed within an hour. And that I can zip the zipper.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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On the Town

Evelyn Herwitz · May 14, 2019 · 1 Comment

I did a lot of walking last week, through and beneath the streets of Manhattan. The first half of the trip was business, the second half, pleasure—spending time with my sister to celebrate our birthdays, which are three weeks apart. And celebrate, we did.

From dinner at Ellen’s Stardust Diner, where the waitstaff are all Broadway hopefuls who belt out show tunes, to a walking tour of SOHO, Little Italy and Chinatown; from a lovely stroll up the High Line to a gourmet dinner and an outstanding performance of To Kill a Mockingbird—we had a great time. The weather was beautiful, for the most part. Our hotel off Times Square was surprisingly quiet. We discovered an excellent diner for breakfast and another for some of the best apple strudel I’ve ever tasted. And we started brainstorming our next trip together.

I’m happy to report that my new sneakers worked out pretty well. My feet certainly got tired, but not as tired as they usually do, and without significant neuropathy. Also notable: as I schlepped through the subway, to and from commuter rail, New Yorkers helped to carry my carry-on up and down steep staircases. Without my ever having to ask. Angels are everywhere.

Along the way, I enjoyed wonderful art, on the street and at the Met. Here’s a sampling for your viewing pleasure:

Art Deco with words for our times at Rockefeller Center
Also seen at Rockefeller Center
In front of 30 Rock
Street art in SOHO
Artistic and delicious pastry at Ferrara in Little Italy
Statue of Chang Kai Shek in Chinatown
Street art across from the Whitney Museum entrance to the High Line
Gardening on the High Line
High Line mural
Art Deco murals and design at the Hotel Edison
The Beatle’s original instruments at the Met’s “Play It Loud” exhibit . . .
. . . and some very decorative guitars
Berlin artist Alicja Kwade’s “ParaPivot” rooftop installation at the Met . . .
. . . and a spectacular view of the NYC skyline beyond Central Park

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

 

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