Living with Scleroderma

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Time for a Break

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No big travel plans for this summer, once again. But we’re trying to make the most of day trips. Two weekends ago, we spent a beautiful day in Rockport, Massachusetts. I hope you enjoy the view.

I’ll be taking a break from this blog next week, back on August 24. I hope you’re finding time to savor good weather, travel safely, and relax, too. Be well.

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#24

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More than two years have passed since I last had a tooth extracted due to a complication of scleroderma that causes my immune system to attack the roots of my teeth. But, once again, another one had to go. This time, it was my lower front left tooth, known to dentists as #24.

I’ve had two implants so far. My dental team and I have been tracking another four teeth at risk. At my last cleaning, my hygienist noticed that 24 looked pink at the bottom, indicating the tooth was hollowing out and blood was seeping inside. An X-ray confirmed the extent of the resorption.

At that point, surprisingly, I was not experiencing any nerve pain, given the damage. A consult with my periodontist left timing of the inevitable procedure up to me. I also saw my dentist to discuss the situation, have a new panorama X-ray taken, and figure out where things stood. The other three teeth have not progressed as far, fortunately, so I’ll just continue to deal with them one at a time. But after about a month, I realized 24 was getting more sensitive. I heal faster in summer, so it was time to take care of it.

And so it was, last Wednesday, that I found myself, once again, slightly upside down in my periodontist’s exam chair, trying not to get anxious as I awaited the first shot of Novocaine. Fortunately, the topical anesthetic that preceded the shots worked expeditiously, and the Novocaine took hold quickly, too, so I was spared much discomfort. But I still hate those needles.

Since the tooth was up front, the procedure was somewhat easier than for the past two molars. Just one root instead of multiples, and no overstretching my mouth to get in the back, which is very uncomfortable. But as has been the case before, the ligaments that form a sock around the roots, making it easier to pull, were dried up, so the root was fused to my jaw and had to be drilled out.

The whole process took about an hour, half the time for previous molars. I did my best to stay in the moment, breathe, and listen to Vivaldi streaming on the music system. I recognized one of the pieces that I used to play on my violin in high school. It was a relief when my periodontist finished the last stitch and I could get out of that chair.

Residual pain, once the Novocaine wore off, was, thankfully, minimal and manageable with over-the-counter pain meds. Swelling subsided within 48 hours, thanks to a lot of icing that first day. I can eat without much trouble.

The one mistake I made was assuming the missing tooth, given that is was in my lower jaw, would not be noticeable. Alas, I look like Alfred E. Neuman, except on the bottom. So, I’m going to have a “flipper” made, which is a false tooth that is removed when you eat. Given that this whole procedure, from extraction to implant to crown, will cost about $9,000, with no insurance coverage (outrageous!), the additional $350 for the flipper seemed a drop in the bucket. I really don’t want to live with a gap in my teeth for nine months until I get the crown. I’m not letting scleroderma get the better of how I look and feel about my appearance. Some might call it vanity, but I call it self-esteem.

And there’s a silver lining. Once again, by charging payments on my travel credit card, which we always pay off at month’s end, I’ll at least get more points for whenever we can finally take another extended vacation safely, without fear of Covid complications. Hoping that’ll be at least by next April, when 24 is fully replaced.

Sooner would be better.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Reality Check

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This past week of news about the Delta variant and breakthrough Covid infections for people who are fully vaccinated has caused me to reassess. A study released last week by Israeli scientists about the effectiveness of the Pfizer vaccine indicates that, while it remains a strong shield against severe Covid, it is just 39 percent effective against infections from Delta. The data sample is much smaller than an earlier Israeli study of the vaccine’s effectiveness (which found Pfizer to be 95 percent back in January), but the implications are certainly worrisome.

For the unvaccinated among us, Delta is a true health risk. It is highly contagious, transmitting a thousand times the viral load of earlier variants and has a shorter incubation period. The vast majority of people now hospitalized with Covid in the U.S. are unvaccinated, and infection rates are on the rise again throughout the U.S., particularly in regions where people have been averse to vaccination.

But breakthrough cases worldwide are on the uptick, too. Last week, the Dutch equivalent to our CDC reported that 9 percent of all Covid cases recorded in the Netherlands were among fully vaccinated individuals, and 14 percent of the cases involved people who were partially vaccinated. Note, too, that the fully vaccinated can still transmit the Delta variant without knowing it, if they are asymptomatic, increasing risks to the unvaccinated.

Again, the main vaccines here in the U.S. remain effective against severe Covid, thank goodness. But I have also read of people getting Covid when fully vaccinated who get sick enough to be out for a week, or who lose sense of smell and taste. “Mild” Covid is still no picnic.

All of this leads me to be more cautious, once again. So frustrating, just as we were all just beginning to feel relieved this summer. But I’m back to wearing a mask in stores and avoiding indoor restaurant seating. If we make it to a baseball game or other crowded outdoor venue, I’ll be wearing a mask in the stadium, because there will be no way to socially distance from other fans. No airplane trips in my immediate future. If, as is now being discussed, those of us 65 and older are advised to get a booster shot—effectively a third dose of Moderna, for me—I will be first in line.

Like it or not, we’re all in this together. I need to protect myself, my family and friends, and strangers, too. Stay safe out there.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Time Warp

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Years ago, when our daughters were young, we used to vacation every summer on Block Island, off the Rhode Island coast. Back then, it was still affordable to rent a cottage for a week. The island was quaint, quiet, family friendly, with lovely beaches and nature trails to explore.

Thirty some-odd years later, other than real estate prices, which average in the millions of dollars, and very expensive rentals, the island remains in many ways frozen in time, with much open space still protected by the Nature Conservancy. As you approach on the ferry from Point Judith, the waterfront looks almost exactly as it did on our first arrival, when our eldest was barely three years old.

So it was on Sunday, when the four of us made a day trip to Block Island together for the first time in about ten years. There is something immediately calming as the ferry backs into its dock, to see all the familiar old hotels and the flag gaily waving atop the cupola of the National. We had planned a weekend on the Block last summer, and I’d rented a great house and secured our ferry car reservation, when, of course, the pandemic scuttled all that. While we couldn’t do a weekend this year, at least we could make a full day of it.

I’d originally hoped we could rent bikes to ride around to some of our favorite spots, but that was not to be. I haven’t ridden a bike in decades, and when I tried one out, I could not balance—something to do with inner ear issues that have been plaguing me for several years, now. Mopeds, which we’ve always avoided, turned out to be not the best option, either (we did check them out, but decided to pass).

Instead, we found the most affordable alternative: walking and taking taxis. Our first stop was the town beach, where we ate lunch that we’d brought along, rested, swam (Al never misses an opportunity to jump in the waves), and walked the shore. As my eldest said, it’s just relaxing to lie there and listen to the surf and the friendly chatter, not too crowded, not too boisterous. Just families of all kinds, having a good time.

Then we caught a taxi to what’s known as “the Spit.” This is at the northernmost tip, near the North Light, where ocean currents from either side of the island slap together as waves cross paths, foaming and spuming. It’s a long, challenging walk for me from the parking lot over rocks and sand, but well worth the trek. Along the way, we were treated to a pair of fledgling, fluffy grey sea gulls, peeping to their mother, who kept close watch as they wandered near the dunes, and at least eight seals playing in the surf, popping their long black heads above the water before diving gracefully out of sight. We also harvested handfuls of sea glass.

On our taxi ride back into town, our friendly driver, who came to the island 42 years ago for a visit and decided to stay, slowed down to show us a pair of breeding ospreys. Our very first visit to the island in 1991 occurred in the midst of Hurricane Bob, which passed directly over. Turns out our driver was in charge of one of the evacuation sites during the storm, at the medical center. We had found shelter for the day at the only school on the island. So, we reminisced. Far from scaring us off, the hurricane only endeared us more to this special place. It was on that trip, as well, that I realized I was pregnant with our youngest, and Al and I joked giddily about names for the baby starting with B.

Sitting on the top deck of the eight o’clock ferry back to Point Judith, after a delicious fish dinner, the ritual visit to the Ice Cream Place, and noodling about the shops, we said goodbye to the North Light winking over the Spit as the sky turned dusky. Halfway on the hour’s crossing, just above the slate blue mainland, fireworks sparkled.

Magical, once again, if just for a day, to slip back to simpler times, with my dear ones.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

Stepping Out

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Al and I didn’t have any plans for July 4th. The weather was chilly and rainy on Saturday, and more of the same was predicted for Sunday. But we lucked out. Sunday was still overcast, but no rain predicted. So, on a whim, we set out for Newport, R.I., for the afternoon. I hadn’t done the Cliff Walk along all the famous seaside mansions in many years, and Al suggested we also visit the Green Animals Topiary Garden, which I’d never seen.

The topiary and flowers were stunning, and their scent, so sweet and relaxing. Even as my feet were really tired by the end of the Cliff Walk, the views were well worth the trek. By late afternoon, the sun came out. We finished off the day with a delicious Italian dinner, not far, we discovered, from St. Mary’s Parish, where John and Jacqueline Kennedy were married in 1953.

Wherever we went, we heard and saw people from many different countries and backgrounds, the wonderful, rich mix of cultures that makes America truly great. As we drove home, fireworks bloomed on the horizon. A perfect Independence Day.

Profound thanks to all who have worked so hard to get us through the pandemic, so we can feel safe going out again. Vaccines work. Happy Summer. Enjoy the view . . .

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.