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Raynaud's

Guinea Pig

Evelyn Herwitz · November 1, 2022 · 2 Comments

Over the four decades I’ve had scleroderma, I have occasionally participated in research. One of the first studies I signed up for was in the mid-’90s, a trial of medications for Raynaud’s at Boston Medical Center. It was a randomized double-blind study that involved taking a daily pill, recording my experience with Raynaud’s in a journal, and coming to BMC every so often for a check-up with the lead investigator, the late Dr. Joseph Korn. Dr. Korn was responsible for BMC becoming a research center for scleroderma, and his successor, Dr. Robert Simms, became my rheumatologist until his retirement a few years ago.

Which is to say that, even though I’m pretty sure I got the placebo in the Raynaud’s study (no improvement), the long-term benefit was that I ended up being treated by one of the top scleroderma rheumatologists in the U.S. as a result of my participation. I also realized, after driving into Boston on a semi-regular basis, that I could expand my options for work to include that city. Indeed, within about a year, I landed a job as marketing director at a small college in a Boston suburb, a position I held for a dozen years.

Even before the Raynaud’s study, I contributed tissue samples from my placenta after my younger daughter was born to researchers at the University of Pittsburgh. My hands have been photographed and written up in medical journals. For several years, I participated in Grand Rounds at BMC, to help educate young medical students about scleroderma. And I’ve served in a focus group to test intake forms for patients with scleroderma.

I’ve also given blood work for various studies over the years, though I draw the line when it comes to tissue samples from my hands. Given my history with ulcers and long healing times, I don’t want to aggravate my hands more than necessary, even for science.

Most recently, last week I received a call from the cardiology fellow who helped administer my right heart catheter stress test for pulmonary hypertension, to ask if I’d be interested in participating in a study of a non-invasive version of that test. The investigators want to know if a stress test that takes measurements using an MRI would be as accurate as the invasive version that I did. I said I’d be willing to do it, but in a few months. I just need a break from all the measuring. But I do want to help, especially if it means sparing others from the heart cath version, which, as I’ve written here, is no fun.

The other study I’m participating in currently is about cognition (related to aging, as opposed to scleroderma). This one involves playing a video game on an iPad at least once a month for a year. You have to do a variety of tasks that require you to navigate an obstacle course while capturing certain shapes. Conceptually, it’s straightforward, and I do okay. No decline, at least, in my scores. But the problem with the game itself is that it requires manual dexterity that I do not have. So it’s not really measuring my cognition as much as my ability to manipulate my fingers. I’ve mentioned this to the researchers, and they’re aware of the issue. But I’ll continue, anyway.

I write this not to pat myself on the back, but to encourage all of you who are able to take the time, to consider participating in scleroderma research. We’re a relatively small cohort, and whatever information researchers can glean from our experiences will help move us closer to a cure. It’s often easy, and the personal benefits—as I found with the Raynaud’s study— can be significant. If you are not being seen at a research center, as I am, you can find more about studies looking for participants on the Scleroderma Research Foundation website.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Filed Under: Body, Hearing, Mind, Sight, Touch Tagged With: body-mind balance, hand surgery, managing chronic disease, Raynaud's, resilience, scleroderma research

Little Victories

Evelyn Herwitz · January 11, 2022 · 2 Comments

No doubt. It’s winter here in New England. Over the weekend, we got about a half-foot of snow, plus some icy rain. Our bird feeder’s squirrel-blocker, a plastic hood that hangs above the feeder, looked like a snow hat. And it’s cold, hovering in the ’20s F. Today we plunge into single digits.

Despite the bitter weather, which I find rather intimidating, I forced myself out the door twice in the past few days. My first jaunt around the neighborhood, on Saturday afternoon, was my first venture out of the house since before Christmas, because of that darn respiratory, non-Covid virus that dogged me for a good 10 days. It felt so good to breathe fresh air. And I finally have my voice back.

Monday afternoon, I ventured out again, along my half-hour route. I was bundled up in my warmest, full-length down coat, lined boots, scarf, wool cap, aviator hat over that, and mittens. I looked ridiculous. But I really don’t care. It’s a priority to get out and walk whenever I am able, to clear my brain, stretch my legs and back, move my joints, and exercise my heart. I definitely feel better when I get home.

I also feel just a little bit invincible. (Yes, I know, that’s an oxymoron.) If I can get out and walk a half-hour in freezing temps, then I’ve overcome my Raynaud’s and scleroderma for another day. And that, Dear Reader, simply feels great.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Sympatico

Evelyn Herwitz · October 19, 2021 · 1 Comment

It definitely feels like fall this week in Massachusetts. A few days ago, it felt like summer. But now the trees are really starting to change colors as the days grow shorter and temperatures hover in the 50s.

I find myself feeling more tired, which always surprises me when cooler temperatures finally settle in. It’s like my body senses the approach of winter and wants to prepare for hybernation. My hands start turning blue more often, and I just want a nap.

My bonsai is responding to the seasonal shift, as well. When I set it out on Sunday to catch the sun, its leaves soon drooped in response to wind and chillier air. A Brazilian Rain Tree, it prefers tropical weather and humidity, but can still flourish in the Northeast, just not when temps drop below 45°F.  I’ve been bringing it inside at night, but now it seems to be imploring me to keep it in the kitchen when temps drops below about 60°F.

We are definitely sympatico.

I brought its little table inside, too, so it can enjoy the midday sunshine through the south-facing sliding glass door off our back deck. Now I just need to get a tray and fill it with gravel and a little water, to place underneath its pot. Evaporating water will help to keep it humidified when we turn on the heat.

I know it may lose all its beautiful foliage at some point this fall. So far, however, it remains emerald green and continues to form new leaves and stalks. Though I’ve cut back on watering it daily, it keeps growing.

Even as my fingers turn blue, I guess I may have a green thumb, after all.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Hardening Off

Evelyn Herwitz · September 28, 2021 · Leave a Comment

On Monday morning, steam clunked through our radiators. The sugar maples on our street are beginning to tinge yellow and orange and shed a few leaves. The days grow shorter. Fall is officially here.

My bonsai has been flourishing all summer, but as temperatures begin to drop, I need to learn how to prepare it for fall and winter. I’ve found some instructions online. Not surprisingly, you begin to limit food and water, still ensuring that it never dries out, but restricting intake. Like all trees, it has to harden off for the colder, darker months of the year here in the Northern Hemisphere. Time to reduce stress from cooling temps and allow it to acclimate.

I feel the approaching cold, too. Still wearing sandals for as long as I can, but starting to acclimate my feet to enclosed shoes again. I’m going through my sweaters, adding more layers as needed. I do not look forward to winter coats and boots and gloves and scarves and hats, but I will make the most of it. I ordered some beautiful Italian wool to sew, and I’m contemplating projects.

Soon the brilliant New England fall foliage will entice, as trees shut down photosynthesis, shed their leaves, and transfer sap to their roots, saving energy for the cold months to come. That, at least, is a gorgeous way to transition to weather that triggers my Raynauds.

And I will adjust, too, as I always do. Carpe diem.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Booster

Evelyn Herwitz · September 14, 2021 · 4 Comments

Last Thursday afternoon, on my rheumatologist’s recommendation, I got my third Moderna vaccination. CDC guidance has been confusing of late regarding boosters, but for people who are immunocompromised, the advice has been fairly consistent to get a third shot. Just who qualifies as immunocompromised, however, is also subject to interpretation.

People who are receiving active cancer treatments, have received organ transplants, stem cell transplants, have advanced or untreated HIV infections, or are receiving high-dose corticosteroids or other drugs that suppress the immune system are advised to get the third shot. In general, the CDC recommends that anyone “moderately or severely immunocompromised” get the booster now, because of Delta’s high contagiousness and questions about whether immunocompomised people have been able to mount a strong enough response to the first two doses.

Still, scleroderma was never on the initial list of conditions for the first round of vaccines back in the winter. So I wasn’t sure what would happen when I went to my local pharmacy to get my booster.

The first obstacle I ran into, however, wasn’t about whether I qualified. It was about what shots were offered. My local Walgreens, where I get all my prescriptions, only gives out Pfizer, as it turns out. So I went home and went online to see where Moderna shots were offered. The pharmacy at my favorite supermarket was listed as giving all three—Pfizer, Moderna, and Johnson & Johnson. But when I got there, that day they were just giving J&J shots. So I called another Walgreens that my local store had mentioned, and, indeed, they had Moderna and were giving boosters.

Three’s a charm. Not only did they have the right vaccine for me, but also, their consent form had a category of “other” autoimmune diseases, so I could honestly check that box. I had told them that my rheumatologist recommended the booster, which helped, too.

As for the experience of getting my third shot, I did not have as strong a reaction as I did the second time: no Covid rash on my arm, less fatigue. I was able to get stuff done that evening and next day. However, my joints flared, once again, and my Reynaud’s went into high gear. My rheumatologist had told me to try to avoid analgesics, like ibuprofen, because there are some indications that they can suppress the immune response in the first few days. I waited as long as I could, but I really needed the meds for my joints or I wasn’t going to get any sleep.

By Saturday morning, I felt like myself again. It’s now been almost two weeks, and I’m feeling more confident that I’ve done what I could to protect myself and those around me. I still wear a mask everywhere when I am indoors or in an outdoor crowd. I suspect we’ll all need to be doing that for some time to come.

I hope you, too, Dear Reader, consult your specialists and determine when and if it makes sense for you to get a booster—or your initial dose(s), if you have not already. Together, we can beat this terrible pandemic. Together, we must.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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