Living with Scleroderma

Reflections on the Messy Complexity of Chronicity

Hearing

Ooh la la!

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At long last, after three years of Covid delays and a bout with Omicron in July, we finally traveled abroad on vacation. This time, we went to Canada, spending a meaningful weekend with family in Toronto and a lovely week in Québec City, which feels like going to Europe without flying across the ocean. I’ve been intrigued by the capital of Québec for years, and it was well worth the wait.

We stayed in the charming Old City and walked and walked up and down the hilly streets, using the funicular only a couple of times at the end of our visit because my feet were giving out. Over a week’s course, we learned a lot about the city’s military history and First Nations. Québec City was built on a high cliff as a fortress and played a major role in the Seven Years War between France and Britain for control of Canada. In a decisive battle in 1759 on the Plains of Abraham, the British won, a turning point that soon led to British control of the territory. This, after the French laid claim to lands that had belonged to First Nation peoples for thousands of years prior. Stories unique to place and time, but all too familiar.

The Old City’s architecture features stone buildings with dormers and metal roofs that are curved at the bottom so snow falls away from the foundation. Churches abound, though we learned that here, as elsewhere, the number of church goers in this predominantly Catholic province are declining. So some churches are being repurposed, including a tasteful renovation of a church into a public library.

We saw wonderful and moving art as well, including a powerful outdoor installation near the port by Ai Weiwei of hundreds of life jackets worn by Syrian refugees, which he collected from the Greek island of Lesbos. Talented street performers juggled and balanced on unicycles in the plaza next to the posh Chateau Frontenac, a landmark hotel. Beyond the Old City’s gates, we toured the Parliament building, which is modeled after the Louvre in Paris and home of Québec’s National Assembly, and the Musée national des beaux-arts du Québec, where we saw an exquisite special exhibit of carvings by Inuit artist Manasie Akpaliapik.

And we traveled up the St. Lawrence by bus to explore the Chute Montmorency, a thundering waterfall that is slightly higher than Niagara Falls, and from there by train to Baie-Saint-Paul, a pastoral town that is home to many artists. Other highlights included a guided tour of the Musée Huron-Wendat and a relaxing cruise on the St. Lawrence. A good thing we walked so much, even as I was exhausted by day’s end, because the food is excellent and the deserts magnifique.

Everywhere we went, we were surrounded by the lyrical sound of spoken French. While I was able to understand about 80 percent of what I read in museum texts, signs, and other materials, the spoken language is very fast and also a dialect, so we had to converse in English. Nonetheless, we were both grateful to our high school French teachers so long ago, that we were able to keep up as well as we did. And, yes, people really do say “ooh la la” instead of “oh wow!” Much sweeter to my ear.

So, here are some of my favorite images from the trip. Profitez-en bien!

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

Rescue Mission

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As you may have guessed by now if you follow my blog, I’m a bit of an amateur naturalist. Learning about all kinds of plants and creatures gives me joy. Sitting on our deck when I’m writing longhand (best way to pour out the first draft of a story), I love to watch the birds at our feeder and other wildlife going about their day (which can also distract me from my writing, or help provide the pause that summons the next sentence). Our feeders hang outside the kitchen windows, my favorite view as I eat breakfast or lunch.

So, I can report, with delight, that we saw another hummingbird on Sunday, pale olive green with a lemon yellow breast. It hovered and sipped, zipped away, then returned for another drink. I wasn’t nearby for other visits, but the nectar level in the feeder was slightly lower by evening.

However, apparently the hummingbird’s activity attracted some other visitors—bees. As we were leaving the house Sunday evening, I noticed them investigating the feeder. By the time we returned, there were no more bees crawling around it. They had all managed to fall inside.

What to do? Bees are important pollinators, essential to world food supplies, and honeybees are in serious decline due to a variety of factors, especially use of pesticides and other agricultural chemicals. At first I thought they had all drowned, but when I tapped the feeder, they started swimming. Then they started humming. It was as if they were calling for help. (Yes, I’m a softy with a writer’s imagination. But still possible.)

My hands are not facile enough to simply pick up the feeder and dump the contents, especially at risk of getting stung. But with salad tongs and long plastic kitchen spoons, I managed to unhook it and spill it on the ground. When I checked back a while later, most of the bees were still curled up on the grass, but at least one was wobbling about. The next morning, they were all gone. So either some other critter came along and had a feast, or they slept off their sugar high, dried out, and flew away. I hope the latter is true.

A little online research turned up a few ideas to avoid a repeat: diluting the sugar water solution to a 5:1 ratio, still sweet enough for the hummers but not as appealing to the bees, is my next step.

And so, Dear Reader, I hope you find some inspiration and fascinating drama in your own back yard. I’m taking a break for the next couple of weeks and will be back at the end of August. For those in the northern hemisphere, savor the rest of summer, and if you are down under, I hope the end of winter treats you well.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

Image: Leandro Fregoni

If a Tree Falls

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The day after the 2016 election, a crew from our city’s forestry department came to our house. We had requested that they prune dead branches on our Norway maple. But, to my dismay, they were actually planning to take the tree down. I ran outside and talked them out of it, and instead, they did the necessary pruning. I was far too upset about the election to lose a tree, too.

The Norway maple continued to bear new leaves each spring. A few limbs died off, but because it’s a city tree, our arborist is not supposed to prune it. Nonetheless, it seemed to be doing okay.

That is, until this past Saturday. Around 3 o’clock, I was relaxing and reading in our living room when I heard a strange crash. A large limb of the Norway maple had just fallen across the street. No warning. Thank God, no one was walking or driving by at that moment.

What do you do when a tree falls across the street on the weekend? I called 911, and the police said they’d contact the public works department. Our neighbors gathered round and exchanged surprise over our tree’s sudden demise. Cars turned back as they came upon the limb, which had made the street impassible. About an hour later, a guy from DPW arrived and put traffic cones on either side. He said it would be a while before a crew could come and deal with it. Another tree had also fallen elsewhere in the city, and the forestry department is short-staffed.

I went back inside to read. A few hours later, several of our neighbors kindly took it upon themselves to move the limb to the side of the street, so cars could drive by, and I thanked them. When the DPW finally came back, they said they would return on Monday. The entire tree would have to go, because it was clearly unsafe.

And so, yesterday morning, a crew arrived. They put the fallen limb and broken branches in a chipper and then proceeded to take down the tree. I counted its rings later—at least 35 years, and probably older. Decades to grow, an hour to fell. The house looks bare in front.

I plan to request a new tree be planted in its place, once the stump is ground down. I know it was necessary, this time, to remove it. At least I was able to give it nearly six more years to live, and no one was injured when its time came.

Years ago, I wrote a book about the history of our city’s urban forest and how it was suffering from neglect. That book struck a chord and helped to inspire a massive replanting program after a major infestation of Asian Longhorn Beetles about 15 years ago. Over the past year, I have worked with a small group of concerned citizens to create a long overdue Urban Forestry Tree Commission, to deal with issues like funding the forestry department, developing an effective citywide pruning program, and doing a better job of planting and stewarding our public trees. A week ago, our City Council finally approved members of the Commission, and it will begin meeting this fall. I was also appointed by the City Manager this past winter to serve on an advisory committee to help implement a comprehensive plan for our city to meet the challenges of climate change. So, it’s all the harder for me to lose a tree. But health and safety take precedence.

It’s trite but true: Life brings many surprises. All we can do is our best to meet the moment.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

Quietude

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I skipped the fireworks this July 4th weekend. I just wasn’t up for it. Last week was such a heavy lift in so many ways, with so much at stake in our democracy. Al and I had no special plans for the holiday, which was fine. I had a long to-do list and needed time to think.

When I finally got up from my desk yesterday for a late afternoon walk around the neighborhood, I was expecting to hear boisterous backyard parties, music, even the pop of firecrackers. But to my surprise, it was quite still. No one else was out walking, unusual for the time of day. Some neighbors had decorated their homes with American flags. One had strung red-white-and-blue bunting from the windows. There were a few homes with a line of cars parked out front, and I smelled some barbecue. But no laughter drifted on the light breeze.

On a picture-perfect Independence Day, the loudest sounds were the chatter of house sparrows and the pensive coos of mourning doves. A few bunnies hopped across lawns. A couple of neighbors, pausing from tasks, said hello. My hydrangea burst silently into full bloom. And that was it.

I am one who enjoys moments like these. As I walked, I was grateful for the peace, the quiet, the contemplative mood. In other neighborhoods across our country, that is not a given. Nor is it a given in other countries around the world.

I hope that you and yours are able to find quietude when and where you seek it. We all need time, right now, just to be.

I’ll be taking a couple of weeks off to do just that, back later in July. Peace.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

Airborne Again

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After 27 months of mostly staying put, I finally got on an airplane once again. And, just as I did in March 2020, right before Covid shut down the world, I flew to Philadelphia to see our younger daughter. We had been planning this visit for months, hoping that neither of us would contract the virus last minute and have to scuttle the trip. Thank goodness, we both tested negative on Thursday night, the evening before my Friday morning flight.

And so, I found myself back in the stressful world of air travel, with its crowds and TSA checks and worries about whether my flight would actually be on time or late or, at worst, cancelled due to lack of available aircraft or staff. Thank goodness, the weather held, the flight was on time, and I survived feeling squished in a cramped, worn-out seat. And yes, I wore a mask from the moment the shared van picked me up at home until I stepped out into the warm June morning and found my daughter, waiting for me in her car.

And we had a great visit. Photos below include some of the highlights: a walk through the Magic Garden of mosaics in South Philly, my first in-person view of the Liberty Bell, an abortion rights rally outside the National Constitution Center—one day after the Roe decision came down from SCOTUS—with Pennsylvania Attorney General Josh Shapiro (Democratic candidate in the crucial gubernatorial race this fall) and 1,500 citizens, a stroll down historic Elfreth’s Alley, and a brief but wonderful tour of Independence Hall and “the room where it happened”—debates over the Declaration of Independence, the Articles of Confederation, and what was to become the U.S. Constitution. Oh, and a lot of great meals.

Flying back on Sunday morning was a bit less smooth: my flight was delayed about 25 minutes because the co-pilot had to arrive from a separate flight, due to last minute staffing issues. Given all the SNAFUs that could have evolved from that one logistical issue, including a delayed arrival of the co-pilot leading to time-out issues for the rest of the crew (yes, this once happened to me), it was a relatively minor inconvenience. Overall, the trip was a home run.

How appropriate to visit Philadelphia at this critical inflection point in our nation’s history, how meaningful to be able to share it all with my younger daughter—and how great to feel like I can travel afar, relatively safely, once again.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.