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Waterlogged

Evelyn Herwitz · September 29, 2015 · Leave a Comment

As every schoolchild knows, water flows downhill. And when its established route is blocked, water will always find a detour.

splash-1192331-639x500These basic facts of the natural world became all too clear to us recently, when we encountered a major plumbing problem in our basement. I almost wrote “disaster” or “catastrophe,” but those words only apply to floods, natural or manmade. Our issue was simpler, by comparison—though a very expensive lesson about what not to put down your toilet.

It all started a couple of weeks ago, after we’d finished a lot of holiday cooking and dishwashing, when I went into the basement to put a large pot of leftover soup in our downstairs refrigerator. To my astonishment and dismay, the entire floor on the unfinished side was wet, and the overflow sink next to the laundry was half full of standing water. The top of the washing machine was sprinkled with droplets. I yelled for Al to come downstairs and take a look with me. No signs of any leaking pipes in the ceiling. No choice—time for the plumber.

The first plumber, Mike, arrived within the hour. He took a look at the situation and quickly diagnosed it. Our home’s main drain was blocked. Water had backed up into the sink and overflowed all over the basement floor. He set about snaking the line that ran from the sink, under the concrete floor to the main drain from the house. But that’s as far as he could go. The sink was still backing up if we ran water from upstairs. He told us not to flush the toilets.

So the next step required a drain specialist. An hour or so passed until the next plumber arrived. He didn’t introduce himself, but I’ll call him Dave. He used a larger snake to get into the main line from our house to the city sewer. Within an hour, he had cleared a big glob of grease from the main line. “It’s like cholesterol,” said Dave. “It just accumulates over time.” We tested the system by flushing the toilets a couple of times, and all seemed fine.

At this point, I was relieved and felt we’d gotten off pretty easily with maybe a $250 plumbing bill. But water finds many creative ways to flow downhill.

The following Sunday, Al and I decided to do more decluttering in the finished basement family room, part of our mega-project for the fall. As we began sorting through the girls’ old collection of arts and crafts boxes, we discovered that the bottom shelf of the plywood built-in cabinet was wet, as was the rug. Quite wet. No sign of leaking pipes. We mopped it up as best we could, assumed that water had somehow flowed from the other side of the basement from the earlier mess, and put on a fan to help dry it up after we’d finished sorting through the clutter.

Everything seemed to be fine. I checked the rug a few days later and it was drying out, so I turned off the fan.

Then, on Friday night, after we’d finished washing dinner dishes, something nudged me to go downstairs and double-check the rug. It was sopping wet. The laundry sink was half full. We pulled everything out of the cabinet’s bottom shelf and discovered a sliding panel. From behind the panel, I could hear water hissing. Al forced the panel to the side, and we saw a series of pipes and valves, but no drips. One pipe had an open end that was covered with duct tape, for some mysterious reason.

Al went upstairs and turned on the kitchen sink, as a test. Suddenly water started pouring out of the duct-taped pipe. It had backed up again into the laundry sink and was, for some reason, overflowing into this pipe and onto the cabinet shelf and rug. So, now we knew why the rug was wet. And why it had been wet before. And how much time had elapsed from the first soaking to this one.

Over the weekend, we called our regular plumber again. Despite the fact that we would be paying extra for after-hours, and the on-call plumber’s boss would not reveal weekend rates, it couldn’t wait until Monday, because we could not safely flush the toilets.

This time, John came. He was very good natured and quickly assessed the situation. The main line was again partially blocked, and the pipe behind the cabinet had connected to another sink at one time, but was never properly capped. Fixing that problem was easy. The blockage proved stubborn. He tried snaking into the main line from the house and was able to relieve some of the issue, but it was soon clear that we needed another drain specialist. “Looks like some kind of a towel,” he commented, pulling out a small, black, rectangular piece of cloth-like material.

At this point, I was feeling uneasy. Not only were the overtime hours adding up, but I had a sneaking suspicion that I knew the cause of the blockage: so-called flushable bathroom wipes. I have relied on these for years for personal hygiene, because my fingers are so damaged that toilet paper alone does not do the trick. I was going to need another strategy.

John’s drain specialist was unavailable that afternoon, so I searched Angie’s List and found another plumber nearby. His company also charged extra for weekends, but at least, this time, he quoted me a rate over the phone.

Joe arrived within an hour. He came with heavy-duty snaking equipment, enough coil to reach 100 feet, if necessary. He took a careful look and agreed that the main line was the place to start. But he wasn’t sure if that was the whole issue. He was correct.

Four hours later, after snaking the main line to the street twice and the main standpipe, through the pipe under the concrete floor, out into the main line to the street, Joe was finally able to clear the system. He explained a lot about our plumbing as I watched him working very hard. I got plenty of exercise going up and down the stairs to run the tub and flush toilets, so we could check water flow. At least a dozen of those little towelettes came up, snagged in the snake coils, to confirm my suspicion. The wipes were most assuredly not flushable. One very expensive lesson learned. If I still use them, I can’t flush them.

But we’re not done, yet. Vibrations from snaking the old cast iron standpipe caused something to crack in the connection between the kitchen sink and the pipes above. The pipes are in a wall. So we have more expensive repair work to do this week. And we can’t use the kitchen sink until we finish the job.

“It’s only money,” said Al, philosophically.

Joe cleaned up his mess. He made notes for the next plumber about what he’d done. His bill was expensive, but he’d earned every cent. We went out to dinner, then to Home Depot to rent an industrial vacuum to suck the water out of the rug. We’ll probably have to replace the rug sometime soon, but not until the rest of the mess is paid for.

At least we found a good plumber. As Joe said, “You ask five different plumbers and you’ll get five different answers.” Now I know which one to ask, first.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com.

Image Credit: Patrizia Schiozzi

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Orange Moon

Evelyn Herwitz · September 1, 2015 · 1 Comment

With August now behind us, signs of fall are everywhere. On recent walks I’ve noticed that our neighbor’s sugar maple is just beginning to shed a few leaves. Nights are cooler. It’s already getting dark by 7:30.

photoBut I’m not quite ready to let go of summer. So it was a gift on Sunday—a beautiful, sunny, warm day—that Al and I made it to one of our favorite beaches on Block Island, just off the Rhode Island coast.

As a child, I loved to swim in the ocean. Our family would vacation on Cape Cod, and I’d always beg to go to Nauset Beach, part of the National Seashore on the Cape’s eastern coast. There I would play in the waves until I turned blue and my teeth chattered. Nothing could stop me from swimming and body surfing.

Decades later, I still love the ocean, but it’s been many years since I could get in the water. Most of the time, it’s simply too cold and not healthy, given my Raynaud’s. But even when the water is warmer (yesterday at Block Island it was 73ºF, pretty comfortable for the Atlantic up here), I can’t risk immersing my finger ulcers in the sea. Too high a chance of infection. One year, when the girls were young, I tried fastening latex gloves around my wrists with duct tape so I could swim, but the water still seeped in.

So I’ve learned to appreciate the ocean in other ways. While Al swam yesterday, I finished reading a novel. We took a long walk up the beach, examining pebbles and rocks, searching for sea glass. I dipped my toes in the water. I took some pictures. I listened to the mesmerizing sound of the waves. And I breathed in the wonderful moist air, which does wonders for my too-dry nose and scarred lungs.

The water is an endless source of fascination, ever changing. Then there are all the birds to watch. One particularly bold—or indifferent—white-and-gray herring gull strutted past me as I read, its yellow eye scanning the sand for leftovers, close enough for me to touch it if I’d dared. (I didn’t.)

As the afternoon shadows grew long, I bundled up in the various layers I’d brought—sweater, sweatshirt, blanket, hat. We left the beach, reluctantly, around 5:30, and walked back into town to find a place to eat dinner. It was still warm enough, away from the shore breeze, to dine outside.

Later, on the ferry back to the mainland, we sat on the top deck and watched the dark shapes of the island’s dunes slip by in the night. Even with the breeze created by the ferry’s forward motion, I was able to stay up top and enjoy the stars. As our boat neared Point Judith, we turned around to see the nearly full moon high over the horizon, casting a glistening shadow across the water. It was huge and orange, the color of summer sunsets and fall harvests.

I couldn’t have asked for a better ending to a great summer.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com.

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Walk This Way

Evelyn Herwitz · August 18, 2015 · 1 Comment

Ever since we got back from vacation, I feel too sedentary. Instead of exploring for hours on foot (true, it was a bit more than my feet could handle), I’m sitting at my computer far too much. Ginger’s no longer here to bop my hands off the keyboard when it’s time to go out for a walk around the block. It’s all too easy just to keep writing and not get any exercise.

walk-on-1445129-639x424So I’m trying to change my habit. I’ve tracked a half-hour walking route around our neighborhood—a manageable distance—and my goal is to get my butt off the chair and out the door at least four times a week.

This is actually proving easier than I expected. In fact, it’s quite pleasant. (It helps to start a walking habit when it’s warm out.) I’ve made it out and about my route at least five times in the past week—even Monday evening, after a sweltering 90-degree day.

Em is home for a transitional break between her summer internship in D.C. and returning to grad school, so she’s joined me a couple of times for a walk-and-talk. On other days, I’ve enjoyed a chance to clear my head and walk in silence. There are plenty of street trees for shade and only a few cars on the side streets to watch out for. We’re fortunate to live in a safe neighborhood with plenty of dog walkers, cyclists, families pushing strollers and other folks out walking or jogging.

Sometimes, I find myself so deep in my head that I barely notice what’s around me. Other times, I try to focus on the colors of the houses and birdsong and gardens as a meditation, staying in the moment. I’ve decided it doesn’t matter which mode I’m in, as long as I stretch my legs, swing my arms and get lungfuls of fresh air for a good, aerobic half-hour.

What if it rains? Depends on how long and how intensely. My alternative is to go to the gym and ride the stationary bike—not as refreshing, but at least I’m exercising.

It remains to be seen how well I can keep this up as the weather gets cooler and, eventually, too cold for me to be outside. But I figure if I establish a solid pattern now, when the walking is easy, my body will get addicted to the exercise and I’ll crave it enough to stick with it.

I definitely feel better when I walk. And worse when I don’t. No doubt about that. I can do it any time I want. Best of all—it’s free.

So, no excuses. Time to get moving.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com.

Photo Credit: Francesco Maglione 

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Salute

Evelyn Herwitz · May 26, 2015 · 2 Comments

Memorial Day is just past, the unofficial beginning of summer. I know this because my email in-box has been swamped with sales promotions since last Thursday, the scent of barbecues wafted through our neighborhood for the past three days, and numerous friends posted testimonials to veterans on Facebook.

Beyond that, however, one could easily have spent the entire past weekend with no sense of the holiday that marks sacrifices made by our nation’s soldiers.

On Sunday and Monday, Al and I walked to friends‘ homes to share meals. We strolled along leafy green streets, watched kids shooting hoops in driveways, greeted neighbors working in their gardens. I thought how lucky we are to live in a place that’s so peaceful and safe—untouched by the ravages of war on home soil.

We have our nation’s strong defenses to thank for that, and I’m grateful to all those who serve to protect us from harm. There are many, many problems to solve in this country, and our security in a dangerous world is not a given.

It’s easy to forget this as we get immersed in life’s daily upsets and annoyances. On Friday afternoon, I went to CVS to pick up a prescription that I’d called in the week before. It had been misplaced. After twenty minutes of fruitless searching, the pharmacist refilled the order. But she told me that she could only give me 30 days’ worth of pills, rather than the 90 days I was accustomed to, due to an unannounced change in our insurance. This had significant financial implications—the copay is $100 for one month’s supply, but had been $200 for three months. So, now, I am stuck with a whopping 50 percent increase for medication I need. This made me quite frustrated, to say the least.

By Monday evening, however, I had regained perspective. Yes, this is unfair and extremely expensive. But I consider myself very fortunate to be able to get the medications and health care I need to stay strong—despite the many imperfections in our health care system. Elsewhere in the world, where those systems break down due to war or civil insurrection, managing a chronic disease can become impossible.

When I was growing up in the early ’60s, we marked Memorial Day with a parade in our town. I was a Girl Scout, and we marched with our troop in green uniforms and badge sashes and white gloves, along with our elementary school principal and school district leadership and the local post of the Veterans of Foreign Wars. There were bands and flags and red-white-and-blue bunting on buildings. It was both solemn and exciting to participate. I had a sense of being a part of something greater than myself.

In recalling this, I am not trying to glorify or sentimentalize war or to promote ersatz patriotism, which only serves to muddy serious and necessary debate about our country’s future. I simply think something important has been lost when Memorial Day is no longer a communal occasion for honoring veterans—when our attention span has shrunken to “liking” a salute to veterans on Facebook, and the weekend’s main events are barbecues and car sales.

In synagogue this weekend, we said a special memorial prayer for all of the soldiers who have served our country. Our rabbi called up any veterans for recognition at the end of services. Three men stood up—all in their eighties.

I’m glad they’re still with us. And I’m grateful to so many others who have been injured or who laid down their lives to protect the rest of us, so we can enjoy a good meal with friends on a warm May evening without a second thought.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com.

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Another Year Older

Evelyn Herwitz · April 21, 2015 · 2 Comments

I had a wonderful teacher in the first grade. Her name was Miss Kelly, and she had short, curly dark hair, a wide oval face and a big smile. She also seemed quite tall, although I wasn’t a reliable judge of height at that age. And she created fun class plays.

Crane BeachThat year, we performed what would now be described as karaoke. Picture a group of six-year-olds singing and pantomiming on stage to musical hits, circa early Mad Men, and you get the idea. (“How come everyone is laughing?” I remember wondering during our performance.)

I haven’t thought of that first grade play in years, but for the past couple of days, one of our songs arose, unbidden, from the recesses of my gray matter and has been cycling through my head—Sixteen Tons, sung by Tennessee Ernie Ford.

You load sixteen tons, what do you get
Another day older and deeper in debt. . . .

It was my birthday on Saturday. Fortunately, the debt part isn’t what brought the song to mind. But another day older is how I felt, for better or worse.

“Are you excited for your birthday?” Mindi asked me a few days before.

“I don’t know. I guess so,” I replied. After turning 60 last year, 61 seems a bit anti-climactic. And there’s something about adding the 1 to the 60 that tipped the scales toward the “older” side of the equation.

When the day arrived, however, I was in a great mood. Something magical always happens to me on my birthday, a feeling that the day is different, special, blessed. The weather was perfect—70s, sunny, azure sky. Flowers that had been hiding for months suddenly dotted lawns up and down our street. On my walk back from Shabbat services at our synagogue, I noticed violets, always a spring favorite.

That evening, to celebrate my birthday, Al and I drove to a dinner concert in a small town in northern Worcester County, at a restaurant venue that draws class acts from around the country. The show did not disappoint: Michael Allman, son of Gregg, performed amazing R&B and Allman Brothers’ classics with Charles Neville of the Neville Brothers on tenor sax and Jeff Pitchell, an outstanding blues guitarist. I was transported back to my freshman year of college, when Sweet Melissa, Midnight Rider and Whipping Post blasted from stereos in every dorm.

Continuing my birthday weekend the next day, after brunch with friends, we drove an hour-and-a-half to the North Shore, to Crane Beach, beautifully maintained by the Trustees of Reservations, a great conservation organization here in Massachusetts. It was chilly, the water was a deep blue and the air, crisp. But I’d forgotten my hiking shoes in our haste to leave, I should have brought an even warmer coat than the one I had, and the latrines were—well, gross is an understatement.

So I was pretty cranky as we set out on our beach walk. I love the beach in any weather, but I couldn’t appreciate it, at first. After grousing to Al as we walked a ways, I plopped down on the sand while he explored closer to the water (he, of course, was quite comfortable walking barefoot while I was all bundled up and still chilly) and lay back to absorb some sunshine.

The break helped lighten my mood. Soon I was exploring patterns in the rocks and the soft shadows left by footprints in the sand. I took some pictures. Al strolled ahead to inspect what was beyond the next curve in the shoreline. We passed other spring beach-lovers, some in winter jackets and walking shoes, others in shorts and flip-flops. I drew my layers closer to ward off the stiff breeze and kept on walking.

Crane Beach EstateAl noticed a path leading up the side of the dunes, with a boardwalk. At first, I was hesitant to climb, but curiosity got the better of me, so up we went.

Well worth the effort, as the path led to a grassy expanse overlooking the ocean—blue and green and tinged with beige above sandbars—and a nearby island. When we turned around, we realized that this was the view at the bottom of a sweeping lawn that extended from the hilltop Crane Estate, part of the Trustees of Reservations property.

As we hiked back down to the shore, I began to feel a bit tired. The wind was still stiff, and we had to walk into the breeze all the way back. By the time we finally reached the boardwalks leading to the parking lot, I was really dragging. We made a brief stop at an antiques store (overpriced) on our drive through a nearby town, then found a local restaurant a few blocks away for dinner.

Waiting for our meal, I was quite weary. “Are you okay?” Al asked. “I think so,” I said, though I wasn’t really sure. I was worried. Here we had just walked the beach for a few hours, and I was totally spent. We’re planning a trip to Europe this summer, with an aggressive travel itinerary, and all I could think of was—how am I going to keep up with what I want to see and do?

The meal revived me, though I could only drive half the distance home, and had to trade off with Al after we got on the Mass Pike. “I’m feeling my age,” I told him.

It wasn’t until later that night, after I had showered and gotten ready for bed, that a light bulb went off in my head: It’s hard to walk in sand. It takes a lot of extra energy, especially when you’re wearing the wrong shoes. And it was cold out, and it’s even more tiring for me to walk into a chilly headwind. Yes. Indeed.

So I stopped catastrophizing about our trip, at least for now. I do have to pace myself when I’m physically active. That’s the bottom line. But I can do it. I have to believe that.

In our first grade class play, the one other song I remember singing was I Whistle a Happy Tune from The King and I. We each had a partner, and we took turns singing and trying to whistle along to the music. I’m sure we looked adorably hilarious for all the parents in the audience, but I took it all quite seriously, as only a six-year-old can: 

Make believe you’re brave
And the trick will take you far
You may be as brave
As you make believe you are . . .

Yes. Indeed.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com.

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