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Guinea Pig

Evelyn Herwitz · November 1, 2022 · 2 Comments

Over the four decades I’ve had scleroderma, I have occasionally participated in research. One of the first studies I signed up for was in the mid-’90s, a trial of medications for Raynaud’s at Boston Medical Center. It was a randomized double-blind study that involved taking a daily pill, recording my experience with Raynaud’s in a journal, and coming to BMC every so often for a check-up with the lead investigator, the late Dr. Joseph Korn. Dr. Korn was responsible for BMC becoming a research center for scleroderma, and his successor, Dr. Robert Simms, became my rheumatologist until his retirement a few years ago.

Which is to say that, even though I’m pretty sure I got the placebo in the Raynaud’s study (no improvement), the long-term benefit was that I ended up being treated by one of the top scleroderma rheumatologists in the U.S. as a result of my participation. I also realized, after driving into Boston on a semi-regular basis, that I could expand my options for work to include that city. Indeed, within about a year, I landed a job as marketing director at a small college in a Boston suburb, a position I held for a dozen years.

Even before the Raynaud’s study, I contributed tissue samples from my placenta after my younger daughter was born to researchers at the University of Pittsburgh. My hands have been photographed and written up in medical journals. For several years, I participated in Grand Rounds at BMC, to help educate young medical students about scleroderma. And I’ve served in a focus group to test intake forms for patients with scleroderma.

I’ve also given blood work for various studies over the years, though I draw the line when it comes to tissue samples from my hands. Given my history with ulcers and long healing times, I don’t want to aggravate my hands more than necessary, even for science.

Most recently, last week I received a call from the cardiology fellow who helped administer my right heart catheter stress test for pulmonary hypertension, to ask if I’d be interested in participating in a study of a non-invasive version of that test. The investigators want to know if a stress test that takes measurements using an MRI would be as accurate as the invasive version that I did. I said I’d be willing to do it, but in a few months. I just need a break from all the measuring. But I do want to help, especially if it means sparing others from the heart cath version, which, as I’ve written here, is no fun.

The other study I’m participating in currently is about cognition (related to aging, as opposed to scleroderma). This one involves playing a video game on an iPad at least once a month for a year. You have to do a variety of tasks that require you to navigate an obstacle course while capturing certain shapes. Conceptually, it’s straightforward, and I do okay. No decline, at least, in my scores. But the problem with the game itself is that it requires manual dexterity that I do not have. So it’s not really measuring my cognition as much as my ability to manipulate my fingers. I’ve mentioned this to the researchers, and they’re aware of the issue. But I’ll continue, anyway.

I write this not to pat myself on the back, but to encourage all of you who are able to take the time, to consider participating in scleroderma research. We’re a relatively small cohort, and whatever information researchers can glean from our experiences will help move us closer to a cure. It’s often easy, and the personal benefits—as I found with the Raynaud’s study— can be significant. If you are not being seen at a research center, as I am, you can find more about studies looking for participants on the Scleroderma Research Foundation website.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Filed Under: Body, Hearing, Mind, Sight, Touch Tagged With: body-mind balance, hand surgery, managing chronic disease, Raynaud's, resilience, scleroderma research

Getting a Boost

Evelyn Herwitz · October 25, 2022 · 4 Comments

I got my Covid bivalent booster vaccination last Thursday—Pfizer this time, as opposed to Moderna up until now. I scheduled the shot for mid-afternoon, knowing I could set aside Thursday evening and Friday for down time if I got sick, as expected from past experience.

While I did get draggy and had some achy joints, I was very pleasantly surprised that, this time, the aftermath was not debilitating. No rash at the injection site. No real brain fog (other than my normal age-and-scleroderma baseline). I was able to sleep through the night. I modified my morning exercises to accommodate my sore left arm, but otherwise went about my day, editing a blog for a client, writing more in Novel 2. It was only by late Friday afternoon and evening that I ran out of energy. But by Saturday morning, most of the aches were gone.

I don’t know if this is because I went with Pfizer. From what I’ve read, the two versions are effectively equivalent and highly successful in reducing risk of severe disease from both earlier Covid variants and Omicron BA.5. Maybe there has been something in the Moderna vaccine chemistry that wallops me. In any case, the FDA says it’s fine to mix-and-match the vaccines, so I decided to try Pfizer and see if I could tolerate it better. That seems to be the case.

I chose not to pair the booster with my annual flu shot, because I wanted to get over whatever side effects I’d have from the former before adding in the latter. Now that I’m over 65, I get the super-duper flu shot (a friend called it “the old geezer shot”), and I need to pace myself. So that’s scheduled for this coming Thursday.

Fortunately, it is super easy to get vaccinated. Both shots are free and readily available at many local pharmacies. One piece of advice: don’t count on a walk-in. I thought that would be possible, given all the reports that there has been no run on the bivalent booster, but found out when I arrived without an appointment at my local CVS that I definitely needed one. The online appointment scheduling is simple and takes only about five minutes.

I hope your experience with the bivalent booster goes well. Please don’t wait. Flu season is upon us here in the Northeast, already intensifying in the southern U.S., and new, wily Omicron variants have also hit our shores. We have the tools and a lot more experience than we did two-and-a-half years ago.

Stay safe out there.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Filed Under: Body, Mind, Touch Tagged With: body-mind balance, COVID-19, managing chronic disease, medication side effects, resilience, vaccines

Backyard Ramble

Evelyn Herwitz · October 18, 2022 · 6 Comments

On Sunday I was feeling cranky. We needed to clean the house. I needed to get my Covid bivalent booster, but I didn’t have an appointment. Too much to do, not enough time.

Fortunately, my wise husband convinced me to get outside on a beautiful fall day to show me a new trail he’d discovered. Our Fair City has many hidden hiking trails that are a short drive from home, and he loves to explore them. This one was once home to a cider mill that has long since disappeared, but the field stone foundation remains, as well as two mill ponds and a stream that once powered the mill. The trail winds around the ponds and stream amidst oaks and maples and white pines and sassafras. Walking through the stunning fall foliage was just the antidote I needed, and I returned home refreshed. As for my booster shot, it can wait until Thursday. Hope you enjoy the view . . .


Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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New Tree, New Year

Evelyn Herwitz · September 27, 2022 · 2 Comments

Friday afternoon, we planted a new tree in our front yard. Ever since our city-owned Norway maple dropped a huge limb across the street this summer, I’ve wanted to make up for the loss. So we are now the proud parents of a persimmon sapling, which will (we hope) bear some tasty fruit in three to four years.

It seems a fitting way to begin the fall season—and a fitting way to mark the Jewish New Year, Rosh Hashanah, which began Sunday evening and continues until sundown tonight.

Planting a tree suggests many metaphors, for life, for abundance, for repairing our world. On a more personal level, I just happen to be a tree lover. The variety of species, alone, never ceases to amaze me or to remind me of the incredible diversity that makes our world so exquisite. Our persimmon has smooth, shiny green leaves that will turn a deep orange later in the season. When mature, it will reach ten to twelve feet in height and crown diameter.

Soon enough it will be whipped by wind and snow, but our landscaper, who specializes in sustainable, edible plantings that are appropriate for our region, assures me that it will sprout stronger roots in response to whatever fall and winter bring. So I will soak it twice a week and undoubtedly worry if the weather turns harsh and watch it adapt and grow.

It’s hard to believe that such a thin stalk will provide shade and food in a few years. But the act of planting a tree is an act of hope. And so, Dear Reader, whenever and however you mark the year’s turn, take heart. And consider planting your own tree.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Beautiful

Evelyn Herwitz · September 20, 2022 · Leave a Comment

One of the scariest aspects of a scleroderma diagnosis is to realize how deforming this disease can be. Everyone is different, and how your body changes will be unique to you. Early on in my progression, the skin on my face became so tight that I began to have discomfort blinking. For some, this facial tightening can make it impossible to close lips over teeth. It can reduce your hands to look clawed. At its most virulent, it can make obvious the skeleton beneath.

For all those who live with scleroderma, this is a terrifying prospect. For women, especially, among whom the disease is four times more prevalent, and especially for young women, it can be a harsh sentence in a culture that puts such a premium on youth and physical perfection, narrowly defined.

I have been extremely fortunate that, over the forty-plus years I’ve lived with scleroderma, my skin loosened. I credit the use of D-penicillamine, with which I was initially treated. Six months after I started taking the medication, I began to once again have face wrinkles. Therapies have advanced significantly since then.

Nonetheless, my skin is still not normal on my face, particularly around my mouth and eyelids, and in my fingertips. It has been a long adjustment to aging prematurely. That is why I found this interview with Chloé Cooper Jones, author of the recent memoir Easy Beauty, to be so apt and powerful.

Cooper Jones, who was born with a rare congenital condition called sacral agenisis, has spent her life living with reactions to her visibly disabled body. A writer and philosopher, she explains the difference between the kind of beauty that seems obvious (a sunset, a Monet painting) and that which is more complex and difficult. Her conversation with sociologist and writer Tressie McMillan Cottom delves into the ways we define beauty, what makes beauty intrinsic, and how we view and live with disability.

It is insightful and inspiring. It’s given me some needed perspective as my body continues to age and I contend with my own scleroderma. I hope it does for you, too.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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