Living with Scleroderma

Reflections on the Messy Complexity of Chronicity

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Open Wider, Please

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So, on Monday I made another long drive for a not-so-short appointment, this time to my dentist for the next step in my latest tooth saga, measuring my mouth for the crown for my implant. While I’m grateful that there is a way to keep saving my teeth as I keep losing them to scleroderma-induced root resorption, the process is long, uncomfortable, and not covered by insurance, so it’s no fun and incredibly expensive.

This visit was to make an impression of my teeth, so that the crown can fit properly. I believe the last time I had this done, a few years ago, they were still using that icky goop in a metal tray that they stuck in my mouth (no easy feat). I had to bite down and hold for a few minutes to create a mold. The process always reminded me of my childhood orthodontist’s office, with its shelves of plaster dentures from all of his clients’ mouths, eerily grinning.

Now, however, they can make a digital image of your teeth with a probe. No goop. But the probe is not small and my mouth opening, due to scleroderma, is not big. And as one tech, and then another, did her best to scan my teeth, each had to stretch my lips and cheeks to get the full impression, a definitely-no-fun experience. Finally that first set of images was completed, and I was able to rest my mouth.

Then came my dentist, who had to remove the small metal screw-in cap from the implant and then screw in some kind of post that determined the angle of the new crown. But he was having trouble unscrewing the cap and screwing in the post, because his finger are large and my mouth opening is small. Again, no fun, and he was stressed because he knew I was uncomfortable and didn’t want to hurt me. Finally that stage was finished, and I rested my mouth again.

But the next step was to scan the post with the probe, and first one tech, and then the next, could not get the full image that was required, despite a lot of lip and cheek stretching. They were discussing the possibility of falling back to the goop mold (after all that?!) when my dentist’s partner, a women with small, steady hands, a great sense of humor, and a boatload of patience, came to the rescue. Turns out the post was turned the wrong way, so that’s why the image wasn’t registering. She deftly repositioned it, redid the scan, took out the post, and replaced the cap in a fraction of the time the whole procedure had taken up to this point. “You’re a trooper!” she said, at the end.

If memory serves, she had to come in as the closer last time around, too. Sigh.

Before I left, I set up a payment plan and my next appointment. I’ll have my new tooth before New Year’s, and it will be paid for by my birthday in April. Al and I could have traveled around the world with all the money I’ve had to spend on implants in the past decade-plus. Here’s hoping everything fits, and that I can avoid this whole mishegas for another few years, until the inevitable next tooth bites the dust.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Good Grief

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I really could use a break, right about now. It’s gorgeous outside, a medley of pink and white blossoms, chartreuse young leaves, sunny forsythias, bright red tulips, dainty violets. But I can’t go outside for my walks to revel in spring’s beauty because I’m having one monster allergic reaction to all the associated pollen. I think maple trees are the main culprit, because this happens to me every year, now, when they start to flower. I have been congested and coughing for more than a week.

This is complicated by the fact that I can’t take any OTC decongestants because they will raise my blood pressure. Antihistamines help, as do expectorants and cough surpressants, but it’s really not enough. Can’t use saline rinses because they tend to make my nose bleed. Very frustrating. Had to skip a theater performance this weekend because I was coughing so much, I didn’t want to be THAT annoying audience member.

Then there is the latest dental issue. I’ve written over the years of how I have a delightful complication of scleroderma that causes the roots of my teeth to resorb. Every few years another one gives out, and I have to start the long and expensive process of getting another implant. A few weeks ago, one more tooth that my dentist has been monitoring for years decided that its time is up. The extraction is scheduled for next Wednesday, giving me a week to recover before some planned travel.

At least my left index finger is slowly healing. Two visits to our hospital’s Wound Clinic were very helpful, and between steroid ointment to reduce the inflammation and some petroleum-jelly-infused wound dressing, it is inching along. But it requires a lot more patience than I’ve been feeling, of late. Like I said, I really could use a break from all this mishegas.

And so, Dear Reader, thanks for letting me rant. It’s just been one of those days.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

Chopper Talk

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It is most delightful to have my molar back. As in my back right lower jaw, which has been missing that tooth since last April, when a painful, resorbing root sent me to my periodontist for an extraction. No fun, that. Nor has it been a treat to eat with a large gap in my teeth in the grinding department. I’ve had to be extra careful for months to thoroughly chew my food, mostly on the left side, to be sure I can actually swallow safely.

Ah, the joys of scleroderma dental problems. And esophageal dysmotility.

But my new post and crown, inserted on Monday, fits perfectly. It’s an odd feeling. What is that thing in my mouth? Oh, it’s a molar! No longer can my tongue wander into the gap for a little exercise. No longer must I consider whether to mush food with my lower gum on the right or chew on the left. No longer does my right cheek sink in ever-so-slightly over my missing tooth.

Fitting the crown and inserting it proved to be the usual challenge in my tight mouth. A month ago, I had to help the dentist and his assistant insert the molds for my upper and lower jaw, because it was easier for me to figure out the right angle than for them to try without stretching my lips to intolerable tension. Yesterday, it took more lip contortions and some deep breathing on my part as my dentist screwed in the post for the crown—not easy for either of us. But it’s done, and it feels amazing.

Turns out, my dentist told me, he had just needed an extraction himself of one of his front teeth. He has a partial, temporary bridge, so you can’t tell, while he traverses the long process of implants and replacement. I found this encouraging, not only because he uses the same periodontist that he’s sent me to (definitely a good referral), but also because one of the next teeth I may lose due to scleroderma resorption is also a near-front tooth. We’ve been monitoring it for years.

Hopefully, it will continue to take its time. But it’s reassuring to know that, whenever the inevitable comes, I won’t have to look like Alfred E. Newman for months until the procedure is complete. Meanwhile, I will enjoy having a full set of choppers. Carpe diem—or should I say, carpe dente? Maybe not. I don’t want anyone seizing any more of my teeth for as long as I possibly can.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Implanted

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Three-and-a-half months have passed since my latest resorbed molar was extracted, and Monday was the big day for the next step: drilling a hole in my healed jaw and screwing in the implant. When I had my checkup with my periodontist two weeks ago and he proclaimed me ready, his receptionist joked, “Want to come back this afternoon?” Most certainly, not.

I did my best not to dwell on the pending procedure. On Sunday, we got to the beach once again, this time on Boston’s North Shore, for a beautiful afternoon of perfect sunshine, light sea breeze, and warm enough water for me to wade up to my waist several times. Just the right distraction.

I busied myself with writing Monday morning, but as the hour grew near to go, I briefly imagined just staying home and not being my normal Do Bee self. The Do Bee won out. On the 45-minute drive to my periodontist, at least the WGBH radio hosts were talking about something amusing: what listeners watch on TV to ease the stress of the daily news cycle. (Marie Kondo was a favorite.)

Then came waiting for the procedure to start. When I’m anticipating dental work, I really have to force myself to stay in the moment and not get overwhelmed. Sitting in the reclining dental chair, covered by paper drapes, I studied the art on the wall (an interesting abstract painting, not your typical bland office art), the plastic wrapping around the overhead exam light’s handles (why does it need extra covering when they’re wearing gloves, anyway?), and contemplated how much plastic waste that medical providers generate in the interest of sterility. (Literally, tons. According the Journal of the American Medical Association, health care facilities are the second largest generators of waste in the U.S., producing 4 billion tons annually. That’s a lot of disposables, including a lot of plastic.)

Fortunately, my periodontist and I enjoy similar music during these procedures, which are strenuous for both of us. As he injected local anesthetic into my gums, I focused on Vivaldi. This was especially helpful as he prepared my jaw for the implant, which involved a lot of scraping and pressure and pulling my tight mouth into very uncomfortable distortions. The selection was Vivaldi’s Violin Concerto in A Minor, which I played years ago in high school, and I could still remember some of the bowing.

Then came the drilling. This drowned out all the music, causing my entire skull to vibrate. The hardest part was getting the drill and suction and other tools into my mouth. But he managed, thank goodness, and the worst was over in about twenty (long) minutes. Screwing in the implant took some manipulation, but at least I could rest my mouth in-between the different steps. As he’d predicted, we were finished in under an hour. Definitely easier than the extraction, which took twice as long. He was pleased with the result, and I finally relaxed.

After a 45-minute drive, plus waiting at the pharmacy for antibiotics (always a necessary precaution for me), it was a relief to get home. Another three months of healing and trying not to chew on the right side of my jaw, and then it will be time for my dentist to put in the crown. Much as I dread this procedure, I’m glad I took care of it sooner than later. Being a Do Bee—on my own behalf— paid off. (And for those of you who remember Romper Room, here’s the official Do Bee song.)

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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Another Extraction

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So, I was hoping that my resorbing molar would hang in there at least until the summer. Not to be. After a brief hiatus a few weeks ago, the tooth began acting up, with no signs of abating. Last Monday, I realized I needed to take action, because the coming weeks are busy with Passover and travel plans, not to mention my birthday later this week, which I was not about to ruin with a toothache.

Fortunately, my periodontist was able to fit me in last Wednesday. I tried not to think about it too much in advance, and there wasn’t much time to angst, anyway. A good thing, because it is such an unpleasant experience. My periodontist is very skilled and has incredible patience, both essential to extracting a big molar from the back of my jaw when I can’t fully open my mouth due to skin that remains somewhat tight. But it’s a struggle—for both of us.

The main problem, other than simply getting all the tools in my mouth and the constant tugging at my less-than-flexible lips, was that the ligament surrounding my molar had been destroyed, thanks to scleroderma. This is the membrane that enables the tooth to wiggle when loose and be easily pulled out. Instead, as had been the case the last time I had this procedure done, the roots of my very big molar had fused to my jawbone. So he had to drill them out. Not fun. I tried to calm myself by listening to the soothing classical music in the background and focusing on my breath, which definitely helped.

Because he had to drill so deeply, it took a lot of novocaine to numb my nerves. He finally used a combination of novocaine and epinephrine, which has the advantage of intensifying the local anesthetic, but the very big downside of causing my heart to race and giving me the shakes for a while after the shot. I absolutely hate the stuff, but had not realized I hadn’t told them in advance. So that detail will go into my chart for next time.

The whole process of extricating the molar, taking an X-ray to see if he’d gotten the whole root, drilling some more, then inserting the bone graft and stitching me up again, took about two (very long) hours. Knowing it would be hours more before the novocaine wore off (my body processes anesthesia very slowly), I drove 45 minutes back to my home pharmacy, picked up medication (and was pleased that my new Medicare Part D pharmacy card works), got home, finished up loose ends of work, and then lay down with an icepack on my jaw. (Icepacks are tricky, because they can set off my Raynaud’s, but better to put up with that than have a really swollen face.)

Five days later, my jaw continues to heal. Swelling is receding. One of the stitches already fell out on its own, as expected. It’s not comfortable, but significantly improved from the nerve pain that was only going to get worse if I waited any longer. I charged the expense to one of our travel credit cards, so at least we’ll get some points from the ordeal.

I’m glad it’s over, and that it will be mid-summer, at least, before the next step of drilling and inserting the implant that forms the base for the crown. I’m also glad that the gap in my teeth is not visible, so I don’t have to look like Alfred E. Newman for the next nine months. I’m very grateful that we have the resources to deal with this, and I really, really hope that it will be years more before I have to go through it again.

And, so, another tooth bites the dust.

Evelyn Herwitz blogs weekly about living fully with chronic disease, the inside of baseballs, turtles and frogs, J.S. Bach, the meaning of life and whatever else she happens to be thinking about at livingwithscleroderma.com. Please view Privacy Policy here.

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